2005大事回顧

今天是2005最後一天.....
通常這種時候是一年大事回顧, 過了一年, 是檢討自己的最好時候, 於是我回想這一年是怎樣渡過......

.......

原來我己不記得自己是怎樣熬過這一年, 而且很遺憾,根本沒有什麼Achievement 。
我只好勉強想出了一些比較重要的事件.
1. 去了New Zealand遊學;
2. 離開了一間應該一早離開的公司;
3. 跌入了另一個火坑;
4. 花了很貴的考試費但肥佬了的CFA;
5. 考了車牌;
6. 去了沙巴旅行;
7. 自己一個去了上海的business trip;
8. 買了一張休閒椅給自己;
9. 完成了 Da Vinci Code;
10.想不到了......

是時候訂下2006大計...
1. 學一樣興趣的東西;
2. 起碼去一次旅行;
.......

也想不到了....

突然記起...我的2005年...由用凍水洗頭開始, 由用凍水洗頭結束.....
2005年1月1日, 去了剪頭髮, 突然告訴我, 樓下爆水管, 沒有水.....用蒸餾水沖頭....
2005年12月31日, 熱水爐壞了...

好一個首尾呼應...
朋友, 你都想想你的大事回顧, 分享一下吧 !

懺悔時間:
這一年裡, 好像做了不少任性的事情, 如果影響了大家, 真的對不起, 請原諒我的任性吧。

我不是明星

我又不是明星,
沒需要隠暪吧!

都市、寂寞人

三個互不相識的人, 剛巧佔據了三張桌子

若有所思, 內心世界未為人知

每個人都擁有自己的故事....

只是第一次, 愛的學問還未知, 可是愛已被終止

只是太理智, 許多事情還未嘗試...

如果不再執著和堅持, 是否可以再來一次?

對你一切還很在意...在未重遇你時還未知..

忘記你談何容易....

可是不要再當我白痴, 凡事也有終結時.........

離離合合, 只因一個愛字

可惜分手試過太多, 這種關係己不能救治.....

己不能再次開始。

三個人三個故事, 在偶爾相遇的情形下....

不用言語....忽然大家的感覺連成一線....

不要害怕, 請繼續堅持, 因為愛有明天....

只是不知何時, 又會回到寂寞世界裡面...

聖誕前夕 - 當倒數完結, 我便離開你

時間過得真快, 轉眼又聖誕了......以前看「相聚一刻」時, 總是覺得:「又講聖誕? 裕作又買禮物給響子?咁咪過咗好多年?」

突然覺得現在也有這樣的感覺.......
2004年的聖誕不會忘記，但回想以前的平安夜，差點記不起是怎樣過，好像不很深刻吧!?不，是記得的，應該試過吃大餐、看燈飾、去上海、看電影、世貿倒數、在家看電視與一班歌星倒數、在人家開P.......

今年的去了看一套話劇, 之後去了Gary家開Party。

話劇是科大舊同學有份演出, 名稱叫「當倒數完結, 我便離開你」...
在愛與不愛之間, 男主角想在除夕向女主角表白之時, 女主角只留下一句說話「當倒數完結, 我便離開你」, 多年以後, 男主角才知道原因。

「每年這一天, 我都會reset my memory, 明天就是新的一年,去一個新的地方, 從頭開始....」

劇有點長, 但大部份演員演出不俗....

如果人的記憶真的可以reset, 聽起來不錯, 但是好是壞?
你又有否將資料回收筒內的東西真的刪除?
是我的資料回收筒比別人大, 還是我份人比較保守, 不想真的刪除?
有的東西, 是不是刪除了?好像找不到的呢?

http://www.facialcorner.com/Shows/endoftheyear/

傷口、膠布、鹽

想不到我的General Manager幫我做Appraisal時會出現這些比喻, 但事實上又是不錯的比喻。
他說傷口是很容易產生, 需要膠布去令它痊癒, 可是傷口還未痊癒時, 再加上鹽, 就大件事。根據他的觀察, 我已由成日笑變成不再笑。公司裡面有膠布, 亦有鹽。

在進入公司短短半年期間, 我真的變得傷痕累累, 當中事實上有膠布幫過我, 有同事鼓勵我, 不過他所指的鹽未必真的對我有影響, 因為有部份同事可能對我說了些說話, 影響了我去留的決定, 不過老實說, 我並未有受他們影響, 一切是我自己的決定和感受, 對於我來說, 鹽應該是另一些東西吧!

總之, 今次的傾談也可說是一個膠布.....

有關傷口與鹽, 我想起了張惠妹的一首歌名, 「別在我傷口灑鹽」。
你有沒有遇過這經歷? 從來未覺得試過這樣的滋味, 只有一次, 遇到了一個在我傷口灑鹽的人, 結果我和那人絶交了, 是我生平以來唯一一次絶交。

You can turn, but the lady is not for turning

今早打開Yahoo 新聞網, 看到有關政改方案的新聞.....

譚香文成為第二名發言的議員，她引用英國前首相戴卓爾夫人的名言「you can turn, but the lady is not for turning.（你可以轉，但本女士不會轉）」，惹來全場民主派的掌聲，亦「一錘定音」，令政府撬票計劃胎死腹中。

我很欣賞她的表現, 尤其是引用了這一句說話.... 好型....

另外玩了我生平第一次玩的Sudoku....都幾有趣...不過都幾花精神去玩....

大日子

最近接連參加了許多人的大日子....

上星期四, 去了參加同事的受浸儀式。對於基督徒來說, 實在是一個大日子, 受浸象徵了重生(reborn), 就是可以於死後得到永生。 在聽別人說自己的見証時, 竟然有點想哭, 其實這個世界還有很多不幸的人, 相比起自己, 實在是太小兒科吧!

於同一個場合, 原來剛巧另一個朋友受浸, 再一次証明「世界真細小」!

星期六和昨天都參加了朋友的婚禮。突然覺得參加婚禮是很特別, 因為往往會見到很多很久沒見面的朋友, 感覺很特別。

兩個婚禮的感覺很不同, 一個在酒樓, 很熱鬧, 新郎新娘一齊玩, 一個在酒店, 很感動, 新郎新娘都被感動到流淚了。

多謝你們邀請我參與你們的婚禮, 我真的很感動, 讓我能分享你們的喜悅, 讓我能真切感到你們能找到幸福!

長髮

A: 看過你去迪士尼的相, 還是覺得你長頭髮比較好看.
B: 是嗎? 這是我人生留得最長時間的時候.

有關長髮的故事, 我想起了這一個....

十年前, 他在班房書桌上畫了一幅畫.....一對男女看日落的背影...
她其實沒有看到, 也只是別人告訴她他畫了這樣的畫, 說是十年後的他們。
那時還是短髮的她, 答應自己十年後無論如何一定要留長頭髮....

後來他們分手了....

十年後, 他們基本上已沒聯絡, 但她還真的留長了頭髮。而意外地, 在沒有心理準備的情形下, 她遇到他, 卻同時見到他女朋友....

她百感交雜....知道他有女朋友有點酸溜溜的感覺...卻又高興他能找到幸福...
而更高興是上天安排讓他看到她留長頭髮的樣子, 並得到了一幅從未試過一起拍的合照。

那次之後她把頭髮剪掉, 故事已告一段落, 已不用再留長頭髮了......

即使以後她把頭髮留得多長, 大概也不會再因為他....而且....他也不會再有機會看見了...

不要生病

不想生病...不要生病...

實在不容易抵得住病魔的煎熬....再加上心魔....什麼事也做得出。

病魔與心魔在角力....最後竟然插了自己一刀..

心裡的痛舒緩了肉體的痛.....

可是有什麼可以舒緩心裡的痛?

希望咳藥水有效吧!

Drink, Drank, Drunk

難得可以明天放假。

終於看了「千杯不醉」了。我覺得不是很好看, 但也不是別人説的那麼糟。

片中帶出了一個message....

小敏在米高喝醉時說:　「如果說真的話，請明天酒醒後再說吧!」

不要相信男人在酒後說的話．．．．．

為什麼男人只會在酒醉後才想起我?

喜歡喝酒，也不一定是隨便的女仔．．．．

迪士尼之旅

即使之前要做到捱更抵夜, 我都要去。因為是公司請員工去, 是公司福利嘛! 而且我也未去過。

因為多年前去過日本Disneyland, 所以我並沒有抱太大的期望。

幸好是公司活動, 所以多了一個很好玩的活動, 就是「撞同事」, 然後捉住他們拍照。因為可以看到他們的另一半, 看到他們的家人, 啊, 原來他的男朋友、老婆是這個樣子....

我依然推介的的活動是Space Mountain, 雖然沒有日本那個那麼好, 但入到看到滿天的星星, 感覺很好呢!

另外這個時節去, 美國大街在夜晚落雪, 感覺也蠻不錯。

喜歡看歌劇的話, 我覺得絶對是值回票價。

最後當然是筋疲力盡地回去了, 很久也未試過那麼盡興了。

我都忘記了

我想說什麼呢!
今晚要開夜….
突然有位同事提醒了我一些事情…我都忘記了。

我不記得他怎樣形容我…但意思應該是”頽”吧..
他說如果我未決定離開, 我就應該開心一點去面對工作呢!

曾幾何時, 我不是要努力做一個樂觀的人嗎?
其他方面, 我都可以做到, 但樂觀應該也包括工作。
曾幾何時, 我也曾欣賞這間公司給我的地方, 只是越來越多抱怨, 越來越多不滿….整個人也感到很迷失, 那不代表我未能做到? 一年了, 原來自己是未能做到, 我看不起自己……心裡戚然…

為什麼我常對工作有這麼多抱怨和要求? 不過, 多謝同事提醒我,我記起我也算是的一個目標, 我是不會放棄的。

男人之虎

在偶然的機會下, 我去咗睇由詹瑞文主演的《男人之虎》，最初我以為係棟篤笑, 但原來我覺得似一個人演嘅話劇多d。 因為佢扮演咗好多唔同嘅角色。好似勁講粗口嘅黃秋生、傻傻地嘅蔡楓華、反串嘅章小蕙......扮成龍都幾正。另外佢又提出咗一個Theory , 叫"Derekphobia"。真係笑死我!
佢話好多香港男人都有呢個症, 加埋一齊就係"collective Derekphobia", 中文譯名? 遲d話你聽!

不過其實當中好似想帶出咩訊息, 但只怪小妹笨, 唔知點解。佢成日話揾緊"馮人望", 其實佢係代表d咩呢? 我地身邊所有人??? 佢係代表人物? 有冇人睇過可以話俾我聽?

Link : http://www.theatreensemble.com/02news/performance-mantiger.html#2

Do you think it is ridiculous?

Today my boss called me to discuss my job schedule in the coming days.

She said they planned to let those colleagues who usually stayed in office until late leave office sharply once a week. She asked me which day I would like to choose.

What do you think about this idea?

I told her at once that I appreciated what they did. But it is not the point.

If I left office sharply, that mean I had to do three hours more next day.
It is because the deadline would not postpone and no one share workload with me.

But of course if they made this offer, I will accept that first.
I chose Friday.

And at last I said if you saw me still staying in office, don’t ask me to leave.

I understand them they tried to do something to keep us. They made this offer because they thought it is not easy for us to date during weekday.

But it is not a good idea for me. I believe if I can leave and I have dated someone, I will leave because it is my official hour to leave. Just most of the time I cannot leave.

It seemed that it is a kind of repackage but no change in content. Agreed?

上海之行

冷、大衣、頸巾、外灘、霓虹燈、上海.....

應該是這樣的景象吧!
絶對不應該是重重的公事包、暗暗的酒店房、亦沒有寒冷的感覺.......不值一提之行。

百般滋味在心頭......

我想起在電影「美蓮達對美蓮達」帶出的一個訊息:

"Life can be a comedy or a tradegy... it all depends on how you look at it."

究竟是享受獨自上路還是感到寂寞?

當在狹窄的機倉上, 正在怨恨坐在身邊一個臭男人除了鞋把腳伸向我旁的同時, 我很高興看見了美極的日落....
還是當我看到美極的日落時, 卻發現身邊並不是自己的愛人, 而是一個臭男人?

當我獨自在酒吧區逛, 看見一大班朋友喧嘩或一雙一對的戀人而感到孤獨時, 卻為能聽到動聽的歌聲配襯結他聲而感動, 還是當我陶醉於歌聲時, 而為只能獨自喝酒而暗暗悲傷?

當我在公司一片迷惘地工作, 卻又可以在夜晚以25人民幣吃到一隻很多黃的大閘蟹,
還是很難得可以吃到一隻大閘蟹, 卻又想起夜晚工作至晚上什麼時候?

人生就是這樣吧! 全部可以由你去選, 只是你想做喜劇還是悲劇的主角.......

P.S 對不起, 莉莉, 我並沒有積極去為你著想呢! :P

Link of Shanghai trip's photo:
http://winonalam.multiply.com/photos/album/6

Discovery Today

It has been a long day.

I went to work in the morning and had a farewell lunch with my leaving colleague.

Then I took my rubbish stuff and notebook to my place before going to BBQ in a place called '白泥'....which is near Lau Fau Shan.

We planned to watch sunset but it was too windy today. Anyway, it is a relaxing place and there is a pond for fishing. We could see people catching big fishes there....seemed quite enjoyable. It should be a good place if someone has interest in fishing...esp you can fish overnight.

It was an ordinary BBQ but still it was my first time to try fish (catch from the pond from others) barbecue.... :) ... not bad.

Late night I went to a cafe. Actually I want to introduce a programme launched recently.
It was a competition for university students to run their cafe business in four days. What the cost is $400 and a proposal. If you can get the highest turnover, you can get all the turnover and you learnt how to run a business.

I was impressed and appreciate the idea. It must be a 'win-win' strategy.

http://www.hundredcafe.com/100_apprentice_mainpage.htm

That's all I wish I am able to obtain, acheive.... the courage, the vision, the idea, the creative thinking..... to run a business......but obviously I am not that kind of person.

"I Want It All "*

I can only stick to my existing job right now.....worrying about tomorrow.

I don't know why I feel afriad. It is not the first time I travel alone. However, I am really afraid.

"A Pain that I'm Used To" or "Suffer Well"* ?

I just know "Nothing's Impossible"*.

* A new album titled "Playing the Angel" from Depeche Mode

時光機

我彷彿坐進了時光機, 回到了十年前...

這一晚我是有這種感覺, 我哭了....
因為那是令人懷念的時光, 那是最純真年代, 沒有一切煩惱, 應該說那時的煩惱, 比起往後日子所面對的, 實在微不足道。

那一刻, 我真的很想回到那個時點, 一切都很簡單的時代, 變回還未經歷一切的我....抺掉這十年發生過的事, 由那一點再開始過....

可惜我沒法子回去了...

如果真的有時光機, 你願意坐上嗎?
你又會想去那一個時點?

世界真細小

這個世界真的很細...

事件一:
星期四無端端被叫入去同Auditor開會, 都是旁聽吧! 入到去, 有個未見過的Manager出現, 例牌派下咭片先。我這種small potatoes , 當然不到我發言, 於是一邊聽他們談話, 一邊在想.....呀...這個女仔都Okay靚, 而且他們都幾prof. 我想我已脫離了做Audit好耐, 亦不能回到那麼Prof的境界....

開完會, 放低所有文件打算吃飯, 突然拿起了咭片, 個中文名好熟.......是不是Account 同學, 於是打電話給人Confirm, 果然........ 突然發覺自己給比下去......不過隨即又想, 應該是目標不同呢!

這個世界真細..

事件二:
星期五同朋友食飯, 將「事件一」告訴朋友, 朋友叫我不要太大聲, 因為坐在隔離桌的人認識事件一的主角...

Har? 唔係啩! 星期六去飲還是打扮一下.....可能又撞到人..

這個世界真細..

事件三:
星期六去同事的婚禮, 之前一齊吃Lunch 時都有聽他籌備婚禮的情形, 亦有給予一些意見。
今晚去到酒店reception時, 打開他的結婚相簿......新娘很面善, 難道....
立即被人拉入去影相......影完後, 當然恭喜新郎啦, 點知新娘已經認出了我, 果然是大學同學。

世界真細小小小, 小得真奇妙妙妙......

給: 世上的另一個我

沒有想過會有這個場面．．．
很多謝你給我這個機會！我真的很高興，亦很感動! 很替你開心呢!

看到照片中的流露自然笑容的你們，突然彷彿看到了自己穿起婚紗的樣子。你正在實踐我無法實現的夢．．．

雖然只是先後步伐的問題，你也戲言遲下到我。

我已不在乎了．．．

請你努力吧！

我的愛與夢想，就讓你代我實現吧!

科大BBQ日

今日返咗科大bbq, 一去到科大, 就見到很多人影畢業相, 有一大班同學嘻嘻哈哈、有小情侣馨馨我我。令我想起自已畢業時的情形, 曾幾何時, 我不也是擁有這些時光? 很令人懷念呢! 因為那時候的我是最有夢想的! 對將來充滿憧憬, 而且亦是最無憂無慮。
這麼快便五年了……究竟做過了什麼, 得到了什麼?
不知為何變成現在的我, 只知道經過了社會的磨練, 接受了現實的殘酷, 明白了事情的不能改變, 我已不再是抱有理想和目標的女孩。

再一次回到科大, 發現Café已改變了裝修, 幸好仍然有喜愛的雞翼。
人的外貌可以改變, 本質不應該改變。我真的不願意自己有這樣的轉變。

另一個消息: “我”將要結婚了, 請接受我的祝福。
突然明白到可能有一天也會收到他結婚的消息, 我必須有心理準備…..讓我祝福他。

Don't leave me, Minami

早兩天, 突然發現我隻Blogpet唔見咗, 我以為佢以後唔會返來。

雖然我沒有好好的對待它, 可是我是無法接受它的突然消失。

幸好, 第二天它又再出現, 而且它已經學識咗唔少中文, (唔會再出怪符號)
真的好好呢!

突然想起以前曾養過兩隻真白兔, 可是一天我不小心從高椅爬下來時, 不知道有一隻在椅下, 踏中了, 不久死了。

幸好那時還小, 不懂得內疚。

所以依家, 我會同minami 玩多d 啦.

傷疤

有沒有試過, 割了很深的傷口, 即使痊癒了, 會留有傷疤?

A:「一年了…」
B:「為什麼不可以再和她開始….? 」
搖頭…
B:「為什麼???」
搖頭…

是傷口吧!
傷口還未痊癒??
雖然可能已經痊癒的傷口, 還是留下了一道疤痕。

「我還未成熟到, 可以原諒背叛。我仍未能一心一意地愛他, 愛到受傷了仍然和他緊緊擁抱。我輸了…..」
~Nana #4 ~

我大概可以吧!

男人不能放下尊嚴, 即使說愛也沒法再開始…

張小嫻的小說講過:　女人可以愛到放下所有自尊。以前我是不明白的。
大概男人不會吧!

無法再愛，是因為那道傷口?! 還是傷口超越了愛? 還是已經不再愛了???

傷口可以痊癒，為什讓疤痕消失?

「無論如何被傷害、如何痛苦，還是想再做一次夢，從心底愛上一個人。」
~Nana #5 ~

People should never look back, 忘掉過去的痛傷，才可以去愛，如果仍有愛，哪怕再一次說愛你!

P.S 我試過留了疤痕也不知道....一天..朋友突然告訴我, 你的後腿發生什麼事, 我才知道是疤痕了, 也不知是什麼時候, 大概是在NZ玩mountain biking時留下的。

奇幻潮 ?!~ Suicide Song

好邪...
一個超寂寞的夜晚....
我無意中看到一個website, 被標題所吸引.."Gloomy Sunday ~ Suicide Song"
於是我click 入去看....
http://samsamsamantha.multiply.com/reviews/item/4?setrs=1 (沒登記Multiply是看不到的)

己經可以聽到Gloomy Sunday 的旋律....

Gloomy Sunday - the notorious 'Hungarian Suicide Song' - was written in 1933.
Its melody and original lyrics were the creation of Rezsô Seress, a self-taught
pianist and composer born in Hungary in 1899.
When the song came to public
attention it quickly earned its reputation as a 'suicide song'. Reports from
Hungary alleged individuals had taken their lives after listening to the
haunting melody, or that the lyrics had been left with their last
letters.
People continued to buy the recordings; some committed suicide.
Rezsô Seress jumped to his death from his flat in 1968.

其實不是最近流行的事.......這是首頗優美的歌...是傷感的歌, 也沒什麼特別吧! 正如我於4月26日曾經說過, Songs have chemical effects吧!

不知為什麼, 當歌曲再次重覆後, 去到末段, 我覺得開始頭暈, 是高頻率效應??? 我心裡一寒, 不可以再聽下去了, 若不, 我怕我不能再這裡分享這個故事.. :P

沒有膽量的人不要去這website了, 又或者應該在一個比較好的氣氛下聽。

昨晚, 我打算找出這個web address, 再這裡分享, 可是這個篇文好像在message board消失了...我找了很久也找不到....好邪....

今晚最後用原本的電腦找出記錄, 才找出這web address。

看不到上面web的人而對這首歌有興趣的話, 可以去下面網址, 不過我覺得這個version 比較輕鬆, 沒有那種效果。http://janeandjosh.multiply.com/reviews/item/6

我是外星人

我開始明白, 我並不屬於這個地方。
突然離開了自己的星球, 去到了一個叫做地球的地方。
地球什麼都有, 新鮮的空氣、耀眼的陽光、美麗的花草、碧綠的海灣、繁華的社會、宏偉的大樓、遍地的黃金、美酒佳餚…….最重要的是, 這裡有很多人, 不同類型的人, 有著不同類型的愛。
我的世界沒有這些東西和事情, 這裡有我想要的東西。我渴望做地球人, 在這裡生活。

開始結交這裡的朋友, 別人開始接受我, 開始習慣這裡, 正當我沉醉於這裡一切的時候, 我以為我真的可以變成地球人, 但原來, 我根本不屬於這個世界。大概是身體構造的不同吧! 我實在抵受不了温暧的陽光, 我的身體開始腐化……我不得不離開……

半島酒店High Tea

終於可以放一天假.....我心情非常興奮。

其實也沒什麼好做, 最後我決定去吃High Tea。
是誰出的主意, 去半島酒店吃Tea吧!

兩點幾去到半島酒店的lobby, 已坐滿了人, 幸好仍有位子。不過如果再晚一點, 己經排滿人, 尤其是多外國人呢!

簡單介紹一下High Tea, High Tea是英國人流行的 Afternoon Tea, 並不是Tea Buffet, 因為所有糕點都很精緻, 是英國上流人所食的茶點，用點十分講究，會用一個多層(通常是三層) 糕點盆盛載，配以英國茶。

而半島酒店的High Tea, 比我想像中好味道和份量多。包括精 選 三 文 治 , 鬆 餅 及 各 式 蛋 糕 ,又有兩杯細細的Tiramisu, 件 件 都 很 好 味 , 有牛 油 及 jam配合（後來知道是 自 製的）。總共$320兩位, 價錢當然稍貴, 但能在這優雅的環境, 配 合 現 場 小 提 琴 演 奏, 而且有免費咖啡添飲，可以'heir'一個下週，加 上 全 套 Tiffany 餐 具（後來才知道）。在這樣忙碌的生活中，偶爾花錢享受一下人生，實在值得。

而相比起cova的tea, 我更認為半島更值得一試！

食完tea, 當然幫襯一下那裡的廁所。我很驚訝半島酒店的裝飾全沒殘舊的感覺，依然很新、很美。

我想一生人，應該要試試到半島酒店，而High Tea亦應是最好的選擇。
P.S. Thanks my classmate accompanied me.

早放工的感覺

早放工的感覺.......非常好..
很久沒試過了..地鐡沒有位??? 不介意..我只想快點離開公司...
終於交了Report, manager叫我今日五點半走....我結果六點幾走....
她還叫我拿一天的假, 我突然覺得好興奮, 很想找人陪我玩。

於粉嶺火車站, 抬頭看鐘...八點幾....還早呢! 想起之前的日子....現在仍在公司埋頭苦幹...大概是吃餅的時間...感覺有點奇怪呢!

不知為何, 之前辛苦的時間, 總會收到這樣的message, 而自己亦有這樣的想法.... 上天是在給我試練, 它這樣的安排一定有它的旨意。如果經歷過, 就更知快樂的滋味。在我快要支撐不住時, 我曾問上天對我的試練是否太多了....當然我沒有選擇的權利。

我不知道它的旨意是什麼.....
當我會為了早放工和只有一天的假期而高興時, 或許我變得更容易覺得滿足....更容易為小事而快樂呢!

結婚請柬

終於有番少少喘息的時間......
終於今晚不用坐的士回家了。

收到同事的請柬, 我覺得很特別。因為好少白色的請柬。王子與公主......我相信這是一張成本很高的請柬。我相信他和他未來老婆一定很希望有一個好完美的婚禮。

一生人一次, 當然是想做到最好, 留下美好回憶啦! 我亦聽過一個故事, 一對新婚夫婦新婚之夜洞不了房, 原因是新娘哭了成晚, 為了當晚婚宴做得不好而不開心......

好似好無謂, 但也可以理解。

正當我覺得好多人都害怕結婚時, 很開心聽到別人結婚的消息....最近聽到一位好朋友計劃結婚了...... 我真的很感動...怎麼說呢!.......想像他結婚了的改變....或許我會有點寂寞的感覺, 但我真的為他開心....因為他能找到幸福了!!!!!

希望有情人終成眷屬!

淩亂的房間

今晚唔理我公司的阿姐, 返屋企, (到講緊十一點幾)。回到家, 成個枱到係嘢, 突然跌咗本好重要的記事簿在床邊, 怎樣攞到攞唔到, 衣架呀, 棍呀, 都攞唔到, 我諗要拆床至得。突然覺得間房好亂, 好想丟掉所有嘢。...一大堆雜誌......一大堆垃圾, 但又沒有時間執。我覺得如果有一個舒服D的房間, 我會好開心囉!!!!!!

Take action!!!

我覺得不可以這樣下去了...
如果要有轉變, 就一定要自己去take action。
所以我終於去了申請Broadband上網, 如果不上網, 我要怎樣可以找工呢! 至少我應該將我講咗個幾月的事情辦妥。
又估唔到即日可以裝好。

真係好呢! 而且notebook 亦都到手了。 ：) 你一定會成為我的好朋友吧!

希望呢個小小的action 可以改變我少少的命運啦!

大魔王

大魔王並沒有遠離我, 我的office 也不是707號室, 家也不是住707房......
只是曾遇到過7月7日出生的人。

如果大魔王是要試練我的極限, 應該已足夠了。

我己不再是三年前的我, 我老了, 不可以每晚做到半夜三更......

充實的假期

今日終於可以放假了。
雖然睡到過時, 差點過了入場時間, 但總算做了幾樣令我覺得有對我而言有意思的事。

1. 看了「電車男」。其實最初不太明白為什麼那般流行。不過, 這是一部輕鬆的電影, 亦有攪笑位。雖然主角不太美, 而最後亦也頗勵志和感動。我明白了他流行的原因, 大概很多人像「電車男」那麼自閉, 害羞, 沒有勇氣。唔, 大家要學電車男, 不要輕易放棄! (^-^) 奸爸爹!
2. 吹肥皂泡,…..那一刻, 好幾個小朋友好開心追住我吹的波, 我也覺得很開心呢! 不過給人一句棒頭, 「不是小朋友在玩, 反而是個廿幾三十歲的人在玩, 哈哈…」（+＾+）哼, 我哪管呢，嘻嘻
3. 終於敢對人說出心裡的感受和狀況了…..而最難得是對方又完全明白。　
4. 同Angus慶祝生日，真心祝他「生日」快樂。
5. 忍不住買了支Anna Sui 特價香水氹自己。
6. 剪了頭髮，感覺得精神了許多，明天應會是好的一天，大魔王會遠離我。

咦!不經不覺做了這麼多事情，我真是善用假期呢!呵呵!

Dream Land

Yesterday night my family went to Disneyland hotel. Unfortunately, I had to work until and could not make a visit to the grand hotel.

Today, they went to play in Disneyland. At night I joined them to have dinner after work. I saw the photos they took in Disneyland and listened to their adventure…haha....so surprisingly my mother was so energetic. My mother even tried playing “Space Mountain”, although she was cheated by my sister without knowing it was a rolling roaster beforehand.

I really appreciate what she did. At least my mother has tried once in her lifetime.

I also think Walt Disney did a great job because he could indeed create a dream world. Everyone go into this world will forget everything and get back the mood in childhood. Everyone should be happy and enjoy staying there very much.
I really appreciate Walt’s spirit.

夜遊人

昨晚工作至到零晨四點....

很苦悶..但越夜越精神......真是變態..

我的一天才正式開始.....我未睡....原來還有人未睡...
竟然在這個時候, 可以有人同我SMS, 再可以找到人陪我食麪、吹水...
回到家睡, 似乎上天我不打算讓我好好睡一覺, 一大清早, 亦能有人找我吃早餐....

這是一個特別的夜.....
雖然睡得少....但做一個好夢.....

現實是殘酷, 夢境是美好

死而無憾....

永無休止的工作

永無休止的工作, 何事才可停止?

這樣的日子, 我深切明白到, 我不是工作狂, 因為我覺得寂寞, 工作不是我的朋友。

What will you be after five years?

These days I was extremely busy. I work until very late everyday. Even I took a leave or being asked to leave earlier, the next day my manager suddenly told me I have to prepare a report urgently. Given the limited resources and no delayed deadline, there is nothing changed but a rush to get the damn job done. Everyone told me that I am not worth to work like that. I know but it seemed that it is not easy for me to quit this kind of life right now.

Life is so boring if only work and work.

Sometimes I will ask what I am doing. Sometimes I feel upset when they urge for the report. Sometimes I can’t tolerate and will cry in the toilet….but I can stand up again when coming out.

My manager asked me a question when dinner. What do you think you will be after five years? What do you want to be? I told her I have not thought about that. Five years are too far away from me. In the past I did have my dream and my goal. But after working for several years, my dream and goal were disappeared. I could not imagine what I would be. I told her I wanted to change field and if possible, I would rather travel around the world.

And you? If you are lucky enough to have your goal, try your best to achieve and I believe if you you think you can, you can.

Sick

I feel so sick these days. The most awful thing is that I could not fall asleep even I went back home late.

I really hate the feeling of being sick but unable to fall asleep.....and alone in my room.

Next days when I back to office, I lost my soul.
Where is my soul? Will you choose to sleep more or do something you like but sleep less in such a busy life? I am a person who need to find something to fill my dark hole rather than sleeping.
These days I choose 'NANA'.

Finally I went to see the doctor today....took some medicine so that I could fall asleep.

If I can have a nice dream, it's really perfect!

今夜煙花璀璨

最近真係好忙, 日日都做到好夜....
而自從星期一有意冇意咁請咗sick leave 之後, 就真係好似好病咁, 成日都好似好攰。
之後病情可以由胃痛變咗感冒...... 天啊, 點解喺咁忙時候病? 或者咁先可以俾自己抖下。

黃金周 = 我的黄"金"周
國慶假期當然要開工.....一早返去, 就係想早少少走, 可以同班friend食下飯...
點知佢地嘅節目竟然係睇煙花。嘩, 咩咁浪漫呀..... 我諗如果同愛人去一定開心啲呢!
不過未試過係海旁睇, 去下冇妨啦...飯到未食, 即刻趕去join 佢地。

原來一班人睇煙花都幾開心....大家大汗叠細汗咁...不過冇咩人會見到煙花爆時'嘩'啦....
但我地咪照'嘩' lor.... 即刻覺得做咗成日心中悶氣趕走。

雖然中途都覺得幾悶......但都最未一幕....看到所有煙花一次過爆發在眼前, 真係有種"今夜煙花璀璨"嘅感覺....好感動呢!

我是醜小鴨

我是醜小鴨, 因為我相信自己終有一天會變成天鵝……

昨天致電媽媽, 她擔心我工作太辛苦會不開心, 希望我看開點, 知道我以前常常不開心。我告訴她不用擔心, 因為我雖然工作忙, 但我覺得okay。我叫她不用再擔心我, 經歷了那麼多後, 我跟以前不同了。

沒錯, 我比以前懂得令自己快樂, 比以前樂觀。

突然想起, so far, 只有一個人對我說我改變了。能夠有人看到我有這個轉變, 已經足夠吧!

我知道, 這個人看著我的轉變, Keep track 住我的進度, 當中給了我不少的支持和鼓勵, 我很感謝他, 雖然我告訴他我仍在努力中, 因為我並未完全改變自己。

我知我仍是醜小鴨, 我並不是期望你要一世跟進我這個案, 我真的在努力呢!

或許我更應該多謝令我有這樣決心去改變的人…..

人說本性很難改, 但我相信, 只要努力, 不會完全改變, 但也可以改到一些。
也不要認為那個人只是為你而改變, 不是他本性和所想做的。試想想, 如果你有這力量去令人改好, 你是多麼棒呢!

我們都是醜小鴨, 只有經過成長, 我們都可以成為天鵝。

遁規道矩

最近發現大部分人對自己的工作都未感到滿意。有的是長時間工作, 有的是工作壓力。似乎大家雖然工作了好幾年, 仍未找到自己喜歡的工作或行業。

因為我們都是遁規道矩的人…..進大學, 進大公司…..結婚…..這是必然的事。
其實大家根本未想過這是不是自己喜歡走的路。出了社會做事, 可能才發覺自己選錯科, 進錯公司….

這個年紀也很尷尬, 話老又不算, 還有很多年要捱, 但要重頭做起, 又似乎太遲。於是大家仍在營營役役, 難道要這樣一世?

是不是真的不喜歡自己的行業? 有時我覺得未必是我們不喜歡那行業, 只是因為我們生活在香港。步伐太快, 壓力太大。基本上是未能有一個好的工作環境, 所以做什麼也會覺得好像不適合, 對任何事都不滿。你覺得你的上司, 同事不好, 他們其實也是被逼成這樣。

真的很無奈呢? 似乎已是不容易改變的事實, 除非你離開香港。
一天工作的時間很長, 千萬不要將工作的情緒延續到家, 那麼你24小時都不快很不值得。
我們惟有改變自己的態度, 學會何時執著, 學會何時放開…..
有機會轉變, 可以一試, 未有這機會, 請再耐心等待。

在同一個位置

我又在同一個位置嘔了, 我說過我不會再嘔的….
結果還是在同一個位置嘔了。最後還是要人照顧呢!

我始終希望自己是照顧人的那個。

其實有些人是很需要人照顧, 有些人是很會照顧人…你又是那一類?
不過無論是那一類, 要生存…….最重要的是, 先學會照顧自己, 對自己好一點。

A touching script

It's a boring day.
I went home to watch the TV series “24” after work. I found a touching episode today.
Tony and Michelle is a divorced couple. They still love each other but not dare to express their feeling. They met when they were called back to CTU for handling the crisis. Tony asked Michelle to give up her high position in CTU and stay with him forever. But Michelle could not make the decision at once because she did not know what she could do if not working for CTU.

Tony was assigned to a dangerous task and before he left, Michelle said to Tony, “I cannot lose you another day. Please come back.”

At that time, I know Tony will die. But I still think he is lucky that he can hear this request from his love. He should have no regret at all.

It was touching that Michelle is willing to give up everything for Tony.

Think about if you are going to die tomorrow, job, health, dissatisfactory, complaint, pride, self-esteem, prejudice…all become so tiny to you. The most important thing is to let the one you love know how much you concern him/her.
You get no chance to say this without existence.

20 出頭

今日看了這個話劇, 叫做「20 出頭」。

這個話劇適合70年代出世的人看, 因為講述了二十多歲青年回望成長片段，劇中有許多香港青年人共同經歷的片段，使人看得很有共鳴。我很欣賞那些演員, 因為演出落力。而且也不用換什麼場景, 故事編排緊湊, 一幕接一幕。

劇中有很多攪笑位....也有很多回憶...
例如:

• 小學生愛用的多格的塑膠筆盒
• 愛看足球小將、中華英雄、北斗之拳、Touch、城市獵人、小忌廉等漫畫,
• 喜歡有問題找夫人信箱.....打去電台的「霎時衝動」
• 以押韻的語句寫紀念冊, 「萬里長城長又長, 我倆友誼比它長」
• 穿高腰、窄腳褲...石磨藍牛仔褲、牛仔衫打結、衫有墊膊....
• 男生喜歡偷窺女生裙底...
• 打無聊電話.....亂打電話然後cut線....又或者打電話給暗戀女生但又不敢出聲。
• 一定會有八卦女生幫男生追女仔
• 開始唱寶記真開心系列的LD卡拉OK
• 科學館開幕....赤立角機場開幕.....
• 你還想到更多嗎?

全劇還穿插當時流行歌曲配合劇情, 如初戀、只因喜歡你、我為何讓你走、偷窺、畫出彩虹、藍雨......

我一邊看也一邊勾起了自己的回憶, 原來自己不知不覺間已將那些記憶和感覺遺忘了.....突然這些感覺又再湧現.....

不竟, 那是我最風光的時代呢.... :P

人帶著回憶....讓人偶爾懷念一番.....而慢慢地, 我發現自己只會記著一些快樂的時光, 好像已忘記一些不快的片段, 我想這並不代表我完全忘記痛苦的時間, 只是如果要記住的話, 我為何不選擇記住一些好東西呢?

20出頭Link :http://www.trinitytheatre.org/20_4th_plus.htm

Have a nice dream!

Today when I woke up, a fantastic beachside scene was still in my mind.
I knew I had a nice dream.

I did not know why I stayed in a beautiful beachside and I had a very relaxing feeling at that time. Someone told me I was in a place called Aegean Islands 愛琴海 in Greece.

I do not know why I can have such a nice dream. What did I do last night? What did I drink?

Anyway, I can't forget the scene and the feeling in my dream. I wish I can leave Hong Kong and go there at once. At night I searched the pictures of Greece.

Suddenly I found a web about wedding in Greece.....it's really a dream to have a wedding there.

I should fall into asleep at once and find my dream!

另一次天意安排

又是天意安排??會不會悶點?
這次是件小事吧…..
今晚約了Wincy 吃飯…在中環…….經過中環…我想過去找他….我答應過如果有機會我應該去他開的酒吧看看….

每天我都會帶多個電話電池, 不知為何, 偏偏今日沒有….
本來只餘下一格的電, 可以捱到夜晚….
不知為何, 剛巧Christy 打長途電話給我, 連一格電都沒有了….
沒有電話, 不想貿然走進舖子, 結果食完飯回家。

突然覺得又是另一次天意安排。
大概是上天認為我不該見他, 是好事呢!
除了感謝上天, 我還可以怎樣?

P.S. 同Wincy食飯都幾開心, 因為發覺大家多了很多共同話題呢!!! …

天意安排

有些事情真的有點巧合….
應該是由一盒月餅開始….

將近中秋, 公司就收到很多vendor 送來的月餅, 公司會以抽獎形式將月餅送給員工, 總算是一些員工福利吧!
而我有幸成為「幸運兒」。
但不只為何…是鴻x酒家的月餅….都不知可以在那兒拿。
結果今晚特地提早一點收工, 最順路應算去荔枝角取。但其實得到一盒月餅, 家裡已很多月餅了, 所以我都不知要來做什麼, 結果都是想拿給姑姐。但又有點猶豫, 拿給舊男友的親人, 是否已不應該再拿給她? 但我不想做事再那麼猶豫了, 想做便去做…結果都是拿給她吧!

她約我去了朗豪坊某地點等…..
在等她之際, 在那位置, 我遇見了一個同事, 與他的女朋友經過。

突然覺得一切疑團解開了, 原來他真的開始拍拖了。我也不用再估他想什麼…

我覺得好像天意安排, 非常巧合…..為什麼姑姐會約我在那地點?
Haha….多謝姑姐, 多謝上天的安排。

Everything has a cycle

今日星期六, 照舊要返工。
對於日日都有 ‘Dead’line嘅我, 係咪應該要繼續做到下週?
但我選擇咗離開, 因為聽日都要開工…….聽日開工有補假…同事教嘅。
如果係以前嘅我, 一定會繼續做……
結果我都係逃走咗…

突然覺得逃走呢個動作好熟….記得喺EY做到第三年開始逃走避阿Wing, 又記得中銀時亦試過……當我有呢個諗法, 離我離開呢間公司不遠矣….

突然諗起一位同事同我講…..everything has a cycle, 無論樓市、股市、愛情、工作、阿姐的心情…..你估到呢個cycle, 趁機入市…咁就冇死….

冇錯…..everything has a cycle…..而我…工作如是、愛情如是….只係不停地重覆住呢個cycle..

工作:
一開始好有幹勁, 取得上司信任….workload加重,….辛苦得滯….對公司不滿, 最後突然離開。
愛情：
開始唔肯定到接受，投入….甜蜜….穩定…誤會….不滿….猜疑….最後寂寞的感覺湧現…分開

但點解個Cycle 越來越短…?
第一份工做咗三年…第二份工一年…依家….做咗三個月就去到逃走嘅感覺。

“make a wish, take a chance, make a change and breakaway”
“find a way, breakaway”
“take a risk, take a chance, make a change and breakaway”
lyrics from Breakaway~Kelly Clarkson

Mr. Right

Today I read a journal from a friend....and got the following extracts.

>>
范曉萱談及有關她的感情事時她說:

"現在覺得愛情可有可無. 找個男朋友, 無非想他跟你做很多事情,
可是有很多事情, 我寧願跟我的姊妹去做, 也不想跟男朋友去做."
>>

Sometimes I may agree the first sentence. But I doesn't agree the second part. It is not my purpose to find a boyfriend.

"可是有很多事情, 我寧願跟我的姊妹去做, 也不想跟男朋友去做."
It made me recall what a friend told me.....

People always complain about their existing boyfriend or girlfriend because they are not their "Mr. Right". We believe we can find our 'Mr. Right' in the future.

However, after some days I gave up and I think I will never meet my 'Mr. Right' in the future.

And now I would think why we must find a 'Mr. Right' as life partner? There can be many different "Mr. Right" in your life. We can find different 'Mr. Right(s)' in different aspects...even boys or girls..... a singing Mr. Right....a shopping Mr. Right....a talking Mr. Right......a drinking Mr. Right......a computering Mr. Right...... a swimming Mr. Right....a clubbing Mr. Right......a comics Mr. Right.....a bowling Mr. Right.....a dining Mr. Right......a icq Mr. Right.....a cooking Mr. Right....a hiking Mr. Right......a fishing Mr. Right......a movie Mr. Right.....a photographing Mr. Right....a travelling Mr. Right.......a dancing Mr. Right.....a TV game playing Mr. Right.....

It is not easy to find a perfect match......so please don't complain too much about your lover but just treasure.

Re: 我在雲上愛你

那天我與妳同飛在天空下的彩虹
漫遊在藍天白雲浪漫色彩中
同享晨曦光輝樂無窮
我要如流星劃破妳漆黑的長空
驚喜每天往妳內心送

即使分手時波濤洶湧
過往喜樂日子定會蓋過疼痛
縱使路途確有不同
總勝過困在孤單的寒冬
我會在遙遠的星空
祝福一點點地贈送

~Written by someone ... Thanks very much!

世界上另一個我

你相信世界上存在著另一個你嗎?

世界上的另一個我, 樣貌與我不一樣, 生活背景亦不同, 遭遇當然與我不一樣, 但…..大家的思想非常接近, 思路經歷亦相似, 領會的道理, 體驗的事物, 也可能只是一個先, 一個後。大家根本不用多說, 也會明白對方的想法。

我曾經認為即使這個世界沒有人明白我, 只有一個人明白我就夠了…..而那人一定是另一個我。
原來這個我是一直存在, 即是我曾經憎恨過, 疏遠過, 這個我原來一直存在。

當我失去了自己的影子時, 我會記得世界上仍然有另一個我......

對不起，影印機．．．

今日在公司感到很大壓力, 因為有堆積如山的工作, 又覺得上司沒考慮我的工作量, 十分不快。剛巧走廊見到同事甲, 她問我怎樣。於是我拉她埋一邊竊竊私語, 剛巧一部壞了的影印機在旁, 它真的”好彩”了。我便扮修理影印機, 一邊對同事訴苦。我打開影印機的蓋, 抽出那大舊的component, 發現沒有紙’zip’ 在裡面, 又再將它大力推番入去。如是者做了幾次這個動作。最後我同事忍不住說:「夠了，不要拿它來發洩吧！」

我停了手，回到坐位，感覺舒暢了不少。想不到我影印機可以幫我減壓。
我真的傻傻地。

大富翁

今晚與和弦一班人食飯，都幾齊人．．．．慶祝Ada及Christy生日，之後去了Christy家玩大富翁。未試過成10個人一齊玩。曾有人提議用真錢玩，行過一圈可以拿20蚊．．．抽到機會咭如果是選美就要真的比人選才可拿奬金．．哈哈．．可以借貸，還可以計息．．一定很刺激。

最後我們當然沒有用錢，但都很好玩，因為我們定了一個Rule，如果踏進那地罰款，而地主沒立即出聲收錢，過了兩個人擲骰子，就沒有追討權。所以我們千方百計地令某些人不為以，過了追索時間。又有人不知為何明明擲到去九龍塘，‘借ｄ以”督咗去前一格罰少ｄ錢。又有人成日都坐監，一出監又立即抽到機會咭“立即入獄。總之好攪笑。

希望下次可以玩番一些兒時玩意，又可以加點創意就好了。你們有沒有好提議??

千奈美（續）

仍然是有關千奈美的故事．．．．
我曾經覺得越來越像千奈美，但今日我突然發覺，有一點我不像她，至少現在的我還未。
我並不會像她，為了不過糜爛的生活，為了開始新生活，而去接受飛鳥先生，雖然是一個好好或可以帶給自己“幸福”的人．．．我還是未能做到。

Woodstone

記得之前提過曾經去過呢個地方, 今晚又再去…..可是….非常之差…
唔之點解non-alcohol 飲品會咁點….連有alcohol嘅酒都咁甜….自己溝仲好…
最後我都係飲翻最穏陣嘅whisky 加 green tea ……

記得第一次去…覺得呢個係好地方, 有層層疊, 又可以任飲….

第二次去….都覺得好開心, 玩到癲咗…..倒樹沖….打翻斗……

之後再去, 已經再沒以前那種咁開心…

今次…….我地話以後都唔去lu…

點解? 係咪去多咗….做多咗…..就冇新鮮感???
定係真係唔可以時常保持質素????

拍拖係咁…讀書係咁……做嘢係咁…..
點解樣樣都係咁? 人人都係咁???
究竟要轉幾多次先滿意???

Farewell party

A ex-colleague, Meisze, from EY told me she would seconded to EY London for one and a half year later. I envy her so much! At that time I thought I should not leave EY.....because I really wanted to leave Hong Kong and work overseas.

Tonight they held a farewell party for Meisze and we had dinner in an Italian restaurant in SOHO area.

In fact I have not contacted my ex-colleagues for long...some of them haven't seen for at least half year. When I got there, I found many strangers there....because I was old enough and I could not recognise those new comers.

I was shocked when I saw James's baby and I also found that my manager, Dennis got his baby as well. It seemed that I have already disappeared for a long time because I really don't know they have already had their baby. Time passed so quickly.

Yes....I really do not belong to EY anymore.

By the way, the food of that restaurant is not good and I would not recommend you to go.

千奈美

我越來越覺得自己很像千奈美……….
因為曾有著與她相似的感覺….曾有著與她相似的經歷…

你有沒有看過一部柴門文的作文，叫「同班同學」?
柴門文就是畫「東京愛的故事」和「愛情白皮書」的人。許多年前無線播過「同班同學的日劇。後來我再買漫畫看。

千奈美……對愛情的感覺…那種患得患失…莫名其妙地與男朋友分手….卻又對他不能忘懷，很想獨立會內心其實很需要依靠…表面逞強的女孩子….
曾嘗試與鴨居透復合，卻又知道無法在一起。最後，決定將對阿透的感情變成回憶，與相睇而結識的男人一起生活。

即使我許多年再看這本漫畫，我也會有想哭的感覺……

其實我不想似她….因為我不想去相睇…….
但我感到終有一天，我可能會這樣做…….
我應該去嗎?

Coffee Shop

是這樣的一個故事…..
一天, 阿John 告訴我他去了旺角的一個地方, 哪裡有薰衣草茶, 但很難喝…..
後來他帶了我去這個地方, 我並有選薰衣草, 我依稀記得我應該是喝咖啡。我開始愛上這地方。門口其實賣飽, 入面才有幾張檯……我喜歡這裡是因為我欣賞那隻咖啡杯, 是很classic 的那種, 坐在那裡喝咖啡令我有置身英國coffee shop 的感覺, 而更好的是那裡永遠不會滿坐, 很難可以在旺角區找到這樣的地方。

所以有時候我會自己去吃點東西, 感受一下寧靜的氣氛, 因為一踏出去, 又是熱鬧的旺角。

後來有一段時間沒有去, 發現那裡轉了用另一種咖啡杯, Standard白色的那一種,我是有點失望的。

後來又有一次去, 又是另一種咖啡杯, 今次更特別, 有自己logo, 個杯型是斜的。我忍不住問waitress: 「你們時時轉杯呢!」她說:「對呀, 因為常常打爛杯子, 所以要試試哪比較。」

那是我最後一次去那裡。

一個月後, 我放了工, 想起可以去那裡吃飯, 突然發現它不見了, 我很意外, 有點失落……我已想不到在旺角可以有另一個地方取代它。

我真希望有朝一天, 我可以自己開一間。

Cooking Night

今日本來諗住去看Hello Kitty Hide and Seek Exhibition, 其實我戒了Hello Kitty 好耐啦...不過咁啱有人話去...咁都想去睇下.....點知去度先知原來兩日前已經買晒飛, ....香港人...咩事呀...

之後去咗檀記食嘢....依然係要諗下一度去邊....哈哈...結果去咗陪Christy買煲煮飯。真係唔大雨嗰日都唔做d咁嘅嘢。我地跟住去埋惠康買餸, 又大雨, 一袋二袋, 好輪盡.....但真係估唔到.....gary會成為我地嘅大廚。一個咁artistic嘅人, 但又識煮飯。

我地又有湯、又有飯。雖然蕃茄煮蛋失敗咗, 但其他都好好。

真係唔知點解男仔仲識煮飯過女仔。真失敗, 不過煮飯真係好好玩, 我都要好好學習.....

Here Come The Tears

Tonight I went to see the concert performed by The Tears. I took a leave today to ensure I could arrive on time.

The members of the Tears came from the foreign band, Suede. I went with two secondary colleagues. I have not seen Andrew with several years, two or three. It is really hard to imagine 10 years ago that 'We' would meet in such an occassion - to see a foreign band's concert. It is quite interesting, isn't it?

The hall was not big. When we arrived, there were still empty seats. The atomosphere was quite different from last time I saw Avril's concert....no young girls, not so many foreigners. Before the show started, the security asked us not to stand in front of the stage. But we could do so after that. Therefore, we had to rush to the front of the stage when the show started. At last I could find a good position. I felt so close with the singers. Everyone was excited when The Tears came out. I could touch Brett Anderson's hands....so happy! But we were really tired after the concert!

Song Introduction: http://winonalam.multiply.com/music/item/9

New harddisk

I bought my new harddisk today.

Same memory size....but should be faster...

It is so 'clean' now and I have to build up everythings again!

Suddenly I feel so excited...installed the basic software and of course icq afterwards.

But I found that I could not install everythings in one night. It has been already late.

Jasper told me to install others when I used. Yes...he is right. I really don't have to rebuild everythings immediately.

So everythings go back to normal....I can online and play icq.....with one exception... it is empty.....

It may be good.... suddenly I remember one sentence from John's gift long time ago...

"No Brain, no pain"

主

我發覺我的同事很多都是基督徒。六個人去吃飯, 有四個是。
早兩天, 我問其中一個同事借了本有關基督句子的書, 後來個個都問我為什麼會有興趣看, 有什麼感覺。
我其實當是看工具書….因為喜歡它帶出的訊息。
我相信有神的存在, 我可能會禱告, 但我不信神績。
我害怕commitment, 我也不會返教會。
我相信有一個’神’去主宰人的大體的命運, 但細節可以由自己掌握……
我亦相信你所面對的路和遭遇, 有這樣的安排一定有原因。當我在苦難的時間, 我會這樣告訴自己, 一定有原因….也許是試練,也許是報應….
但苦難的日子不會是永遠, 總會過去….之後人便成長, 更懂珍惜快樂的時光。
而不親身經歷過, 你也不懂去幫助其他人。

千杯不醉

不是宣傳楊千嬅和吳彥祖的新片, 我真的害怕自己會練成這身絶技。
我越來越覺得自己不易醉了, 昨晚唱K唱通宵, 飲了也不少酒, 沒有預先吃解酒丸, 但我竟然沒有太大醉意。

記得小時候是媽媽教我飲少許酒, 她說識飲酒就不易被人灌醉。那是最喜歡去飲時, 叫七喜加兩滴白蘭地, 侍應常以為是忌廉。

但真正飲酒, 第一次飲醉, 應該大約中五六吧, 還記得是被帶到聯和墟的一間酒吧, 我飲了兩支啤酒, 飲時我並沒什麼反應, 怎料一起身我就頭暈, 站不穏了。
不過那時也挺開心。

之後, 不用多說, 應該大學時開始, 喜歡一大班朋友飲酒…...我不是很能飲, 但之後都避免不了, 一大班朋友開心時飲酒, 朋友失戀陪飲酒, 返大陸陪client飲酒, Annual Dinner勁飲, 兩個人摸酒杯底….一個人飲悶酒…, 由只識飲啤酒到飲紅酒, whisky, volka…..由去bar到去樓上pub, 由第五街到Woodstone。

見証了我們的成長。

由最初有少少wing的感覺,…到最後沒有感覺…….
很可怕呢!

對上一次我真的飲醉, 應該是與同一個人, 帶我第一次飲的人。隔了這麼多年了, 不過那時也挺開心

P.S. 其實真的想醉, 應該要溝酒飲, 即嘔。

Drama

It is hard to believe that I have seen a drama tonight, which was performed by my friend.
It is hard to believe that I seen a drama, not in City Hall or Culture Centre, but in an industrial building in Diamond Hill.

It is really a special experience. I am really glad to meet Gary, such a ‘cool’ and artistic man.

Although this is his first performance, I can feel his potential. At least he could avoid laughing when he saw us laughing at him when he just came out….haha..

It should be funny to stand on the stage, right?

I think everyone should have a chance, right? Maybe next time you can have chance on your wedding party.

My hard disk was dead

I was notified that my harddisk was certified to death.

As I told you before, I know he is dying. But at the moment of the reconfirmation, suddenly I feel so sad. Not just only I cannot use it again, but also I 'lost' it....all the memories saved in it, that cannot be retrieved anymore.

I feel like part of my life has passed away.

Those memories included many photos, the songs that was saved starting from my university life, emails, wallpapers and etc. .....

A friend comforted me that the songs can be downloaded again. Yes, he is right. However, how can I rebuild all the memories that supposed accumulated for few years in a short period? If I can rebuild my memories, should I rebuild a totally different memory of my past? Any suggestion?


I think I am good at memorising thing. However, when I recall my sad part of my memory, I really envy those who do not have a bad memory....... Maybe it is better if we can have a right to choose to forget those unhappy part.

But I think I am the type who can't live without memories....

I have tried my best to build wonderful memories for myself ...... let me review again and again..until the day I die.

Man should look forward and move on....but it is not so bad to look back in fact....I think just the way how to look back......

My recent life

I can't believe my life experencing this week. Two months passed so quickly. I have entered this company for two months. However, here I feel like passing double or triple hours........
I still have to stay late in office. Some people asked me to quit and sometimes I want. But sometimes I would think maybe it suits me.

Anyway, I can still enjoy my life...busy life after works. I nearly sleep very little at night..sometimes i can't fall asleep....sometimes I am chatting with friends. Although I am tired, I was happy to do that....give up my sleeping time.

Because the life with work only is very boring.

Some friends have good news...some friends have bad news. ... I like them to share with me and that's I can only do for them!

But not many friends can chat with me after 1200am ... you know.

And at the same time, my hard disk died......
I will choose a day to hold a funeral for it....my dear....I might lost all the data in it...!

費格遜

今早翻開都市日報, 見一到一幅有趣的照片.....

曼聯球員董方卓、傑斯、費格遜, 在北京參加聯合國兒童基金會的活動。董方卓和傑斯分別拿著一張寫了「聯」及「手」的紙於心口。費格遜站在中間。

看到後我忍不住笑。費格遜果然是最「掂」的英超領隊。

曼聯來香港那天, 他已精心安排球隊的出場時間...下午上半場...下半場....夜晚那場....

想不到這個有意義的活動, 他就派了沒有去蒲的球員。

我真想知道, 其實這些活動安排是球員自己報名還是指派呢?

我在雲上愛你(續)

終於看完張小嫻最新的作品---我在雲上愛你。

老實說, 以前我喜歡看她的作品, 但近年來我對她的作品已不大感興趣了。因為她的文筆也不算有深度, 只是看的時候總覺得很感動。

到這一本, 我其實不打算看。不知怎地走了入間書店, 看到這個本書, 翻到最後一頁, 因為最後一句, 我決定買這本書。

如我想像, 這是一個沉悶的故事, 或者描述的故事是中學生的戀愛, 原來我已太老了。即使我的中學感情生活有多精彩, 已勾不起我的共鳴。

看到最後....啊...原來是因為紀念這事件而寫的。

縱使故事不太好, 但我依然很喜歡她改的書名......
我在雲上愛你.....把天空還給你....我們都是醜小鴨等....

如果有興趣看, 歡迎隨時問我借閱!

Ryan Giggs come to HK!

Today....
Today I saw my idiot Ryan Giggs finally. He was just standing 30 miles far from me.
Last two times he did not come with Manchester United to Hong Kong and I also did not buy the tickets to see the football match. I was so lucky today.

And don't know why he became the man of the match!

To be honest, it is not a excellent match. But I still enjoy it. I was happy to know that my favourite football player did not join the night section with his teammate at night...he should be a good man!

Also I saw many people dressing in Manchester United...suddenly I thought of a guy who is a Man U lover....this image is alwasy in my mind.

我在雲上愛你

那天你帶我上天空中飛
讓我感受到另一世界的美
與你結伴看晨曦
夜空星際使我看得出奇
每天也覺得很驚喜

最後要與你別離
但那些日子我不會忘記
我決定以後不必有你同飛
留下繼續雲彩的美
希望你會記起
我在雲上愛你

My father

I have been so busy at work for the past two weeks until this monday. In fact I nearly see nobody except my colleagues.
But today my mum told me my dad had bought somethings for her to make a soup for me....and then he took out to Mong Kok home to me. My tears ran down because I was so touching about that especially when I wanted someone to care about me during my busy period.

In fact, I did not like my father in the past because he is not a good father in my mind. He did not concern us at all. But maybe when he was getting older, he changed. I know I would never accept somethings he made or he did in the past. And I know he would never change some of his characteristic..but I was really happy to see his changes...at least some. I really hope he can change to be a good hunsband as well although my mum has waited for over 20 years.

你覺得浪漫嗎?

今日同同事吃飯時, 一個女同事問咗我一個問題, 如果你另一半對你咁講.....問我聽完後會否覺得呢段說話好浪漫.....

老公: 你唔好怪我咁對你...
老婆: 如果可以的話...我下一世都會擇你我老公....

我覺得浪漫....但同場另一個男同事就話冇感覺。其實背後的故事是來自Five people meet in heaven本...我未睇....但好似係話老公經歷咗d咩變得自閉....而對老婆唔好....死咗後在天堂遇見佢老婆.....而老婆冇怪佢...

我地想知....如果你另一半對你講..你會唔會覺得好浪漫? 定係男仔冇咁有感覺?
希望你會留言.....可以不記名的.......說說你的想法....

我先講....我唔可以話好浪漫...但我覺得好感動......比那些''愛是包容、忍耐"等更深一層。做到愛是包容、忍耐係好厲害....但如果有人知道我嘅唔好, 願意去容忍, 而係一世都唔夠....仲會忍多一世...係咪好感動?

開夜

很久未試過開OT要開到坐的士了....
這幾天都是工作、工作...都沒有享過假期和睡覺。昨晚更做到零晨四時, 有種感覺, 令我想起在EY的日子。
但真的很倦了, 不是Physicallly,是mentally.....
最恐怖的是, 收工一跳上的士, 聽到收音機播放著這首歌...

沒有你還是愛你 從未愛你愛得 這麼淒美......

不知為何, 我有點想哭的感覺.....

七一回歸

七一回歸日...你有沒有上街遊行?
時間過得真快, 去年曾經打算去遊行,結果我那天病倒了。
今天早上從收音機聽到曾特首說從來未見過那般愛國愛黨的時刻, 與國家不能分割等說話.....我的感覺好奇怪......
沒有了董伯伯..........沒有那麼多人上街遊行......這也是合理的.
有的人認為曾特首很假, 很識做戲....我就認為那最適合做這位置了.....董伯伯就正因為不會演戲, 沒有表達能力.....結果....
我當然希望新特首能帶給大家新希望, 起碼他的民望比較高, 作為一個領袖, 這是很重要的。
我亦希望有一年我可以享受一下這一日的公眾假期, 而不像這一天在公司中渡過。

對不起! 我不能夠祝福你們..

「對不起! 我不能夠祝福你們....因為我看不到你們將來會有什麼幸福!」

如果我沒記錯, 阿強應該是這樣對田寧說的。

這是昨晚創世記最後的對白.....那一刻, 我無辦法去想像如果我是阿強, 那種心情會是怎樣? 我不明白的是, 為什麼田寧想阿強出席她的婚禮。很難受吧! 一定是很不甘心,眼見自己心愛的人去嫁給一個衰人, 不能給他幸福的人。而能給他幸福的人, 相信只有自己。

你有否試過不會祝福一對新人? 對於一個你著緊的人, 我想你真的希望他可以找到一個好的終身伴侶, 如果不是, 很可惜, 你不能得到我的祝福。

阿強這種人, 如果阿寧能夠找到一個能帶給他幸福的人, 他一定會祝福她的。

失眠夜

昨晚又再失眠了,其實都很久沒試過。
由公司回到家時已經很夜,腦裡仍充滿了公司計算的數字。但我還未想休息,於是打開schedule研究怎計算Deferred Tax。其實是一邊看schedule,一邊看「創世記」的。看完都未有睡意,飲點酒吧試下睡, 怎料還是睡不著。我最不喜歡躺在床上又睡不著的感覺了,感覺很浪費時間... 結果,我又起了身, 不知做什麼好,見都隻DVD--向左愛向右愛......
以前聽人話好看,但我一直都未有機會看,而之前放假的時候我又怕看傷感的戲使我流淚。
現在看過以後才知道原來是這樣的戲, 不錯吧! 兩個不同性格的女仔卻又能成為好朋友, 最後男主角讀信時實在使人感動的。
我以為我這一晚會通宵, 看完戲應該是五點吧。我睡著了.........

Desperate housewife

Finally I have watched this week '24'....and also 'Desperate wife'. Have you seen that? This is another series I would like to recommend. What a surprise to me it is not just a story or joke about an uneasy life to be a wife. It is a story with element of suspense and mystery. Sometimes it also brings out theory to let you think and understand.
For girls, you should see and you can find out different characteristic from the five women...and life to be a wife...or try not to act like them.....For boys, you should see and you can understand how a wife think or behave. They might be terrible.

Have you imagined how's your life will be after marriage? Different people would have different attitude towards marriage. People might think it means lose of freedom, especially man will. Some people think it is just a sheet of paper both signed on. Others may think it is a responsibity......so they don't want to get married early, is it a kind of escape or something?
Married or not...from my point of view, it is just a status...of course it has meaning and kind of responsibity, more important thing is that you can find a life partner who you are willing to stay with. If you can find a right person, you would not be afraid of getting married...it's just a matter of time. and you should feel lucky to find such a person.

Hope everyone can still believe in love and marriage.
May love be with you.

好想你

歌手：徐若瑄 作曲：陳達偉填詞：陳達偉 編曲：劉文仁 Willie Liu

Hi My one and only　這麼多天沒見
可是我總想起你的聲音在我耳邊
今天心情好嗎　是否不愉快
要一切都看得開　世界沒有太壞
雖然不在你身邊 我的心有一條線　連著你　牽著你
我好想你　想到願意相信
我就閉上了眼睛　你在這裡
別忘記　我們的約定 一直都在我心裡
不管你在哪裡 不要忘了我有多麼愛你

不要忘了吃飯　不管有多忙
不要忘了開車時候　一定要往前看
其實我真的很快樂　有你一直守候
一直走到了以後都挽著你的手
雖然不在你身邊 但我在你心裡面　
我願意　等著你
我好想你　想到不能呼吸
想到全身沒力氣　沒有關係
你別忘記　我們的約定 一直都在我心裡
不管你在哪裡 不要忘了我有多麼愛你
我一直在這裡 不要忘了我有多麼愛你

24(continued)

What a pity I has missed "24" on Peral yesterday night. Who has recorded a copy? Please tell me.

But today it seemed that I have experienced more than 24 hours.
9:00am to 8:15pm work and work and work..... I did a lot in office.

8:15pm to 8:50pm....rushed to attend a funeral......I even did not know what kind of transportation I should take to Hung Hum from Kwai Fong.

8:50pm to 9:15pmthe atmosphere was better than I expected...no cried....no sad....but it was so strange that my old colleagues were still talking about job matters at that time. I also met a old colleague and had a "nice" to talk her.

9:15pm to 10:30pm finally we finished our conversation and Jenny told me it was difficult to interrupted us but other collegues are waiting for us to have dinner.....damn. We had dinner nearby.

10:30pm to 12:57:am Jenny and I walked from Jordon to Mongkok and then we chatted. It was really good to share a lot each other about my previous employer.

12:57am to 1:30am Back home and prepared to sleep

1:30am to 3:30am I was so tired but i changed my mind and turned to read 'share-based payment'. I felt sorry that i did not prepare well on the meeting.

3:30am....sleep....

I really hope I can have more 24 hours a day. My new collegues told me we will enter a timing zone soon, where the time will be extended longer than outside...(just like the room in Dragon ball) because of our busy work......

Really have such a timing zone in the world? I wish I can go inside!

不要害怕

今日星期日,亦是父親節, 我假爸爸叫了我去望彌撒。
我並不是信徒,但我相信它的存在。
雖然那位神父有點狂野,不大聽得清楚他的廣東話,但我聽到幾句說話。
「當你遇到困難,不要害怕,因為神一直在你身邊....」
「神會寬恕任何人,包括敵人....」
「神會愛所有人」
突然我的心情感到很舒暢, 這星期面對的困局也驟然明朗。
如果別人希望這樣做, 如果別人想這樣對待我, 如果別人覺得開心,我又何必計較太多?
我也不再害怕, 如果預知要發生的事是可佈的......我也不應害怕....勇敢地面對!
我不是神, 但我希望能愛和關心身邊所有的人, 而不限制於過去、外表等有形的東西。

這個世界應該充滿愛....
愛的力量是無限,你又有否真正的接觸和認識過?

Anna Sui - Secret Wish

Tonight we celebrated Wang's birthday and ate at 'Siu fat Yeung'. We are waiting for him to deliver invitation card for his wedding party......however, just we hope...haha...
I really hope he can get married soon. I just wonder who will marry first in 'woryin' because we are getting older and older.

And tonight I got a 'secret wish' from my best friend. I told her I will buy one for myself as a gift after I found a new job. She is so nice that she has already bought me.
It is actually a perfume issued by Anna Sui recently. I like it very very much because of the name, 'secret wish'.
Have you ever had a secret wish?
If you ask me, I would tell you I have one....that one....it's a falling star wish. I did not tell others because people say wish won't come true if you tell others. So it's definitely a secret wish.
However I know this wish will never come true.

I believe everyone must make many wishes in his/her life. But how many would come true?
However, people still make wish again and again. Why not? At least you can still have a hope. Life should be full of hope so that you can have motivation, right?

I also like the bottle of this secret wish. There is an angel sitting at the top of the bottle.....
and I wanna to be an angel........to have an angel's heart!

OT王

今日俾個同事話我係OT王,激死我啦!
跟住我即刻冇心機做嘢,於是8點幾走咗......我反思咗好耐,點解咁樣話我?我都唔想留咁夜嘛.....因為真係好多嘢做,而我又唔熟..
究竟佢係諷刺我定可憐我?
但俾佢話完之後,我突然記起一d嘢........
最初我唔介意做夜d係因為反正夜晚冇咩做,打算用工作打發時間, 其實我都幾Enjoy做呀....不過唔可以係咁, 因為人地以為我好慘咁, 好可憐咁.....唔好啦...唔好可憐我。
人係應該要有Balanced Life, 就算幾忙都好,都應該要有私人時間。唔好將工作帶番屋企。
而且做事應該要專心....工作時工作,玩時就要投入去玩。我真的忘記了這些道理!
所以我決定唔再做新界隻牛,下星期我要八點前走,你打嚟都應該揾唔到我!

常餐

我很喜歡去xx茶餐廳吃常餐---火腿奄列加五香牛肉麵。雖然我都有試過吃其他餐---快餐A及快餐B,都幾好味.....但不知為何最後我都忍不住食番常餐......咁又食咗差不多十年了。
人人都話我悶,為何不試下其他的食物。我都不知為什麼,喜歡便是喜歡......
但我都知五香牛肉麵太棘,食得多無益,所以我決定戒常餐!
xx茶餐廳剛好有一個新款式----健康餐,既然要戒常餐,不理好不好味,搏一搏。
結果出奇地好吃,所以別人說得對,應該試多點其他菜單。我很高興找了美味的食物,因為既健康,又好味。
但一天,餐牌上的健康餐消失了,原來只是限期發售。
很失落呢,我望了餐牌很久、很久, 突然又見到常餐、A餐和B餐........ 猶豫我應該叫那一個。
不要常餐,我已戒了....有點想吃A餐.....但要等好耐.....B餐....已賣完了....
原來不是我想吃就可以吃呢!
突然我決定了, 我離開了那間茶餐廳。
我不一定要再吃常餐, 我可以回家親手泡製一個健康餐,幾時吃都可。

Black Russian

This is my first time to mix a cocktail by myself.
Black Russian is my favourite cocktail that I often order when drinking. Sometimes suddenly I want to drink and I will go to have one.
But I found that it is not easy to mix one by myself.
Vodka + Kahlua (coffee wine) + lot of ice cube = Black Russian

Um...feel so good....so I can also enjoy at home. If you want to try, please tell me.

To enjoy life, why don't you try something or make something by yourself?

節日恐懼症!?

有沒有人聽過這種症? 我懷疑自己患了......
今日很悶地工作時,突然感到心緒不寧,可能因為端午節快要來到。情人節、聖誕節就話,端午節都怕?我終於記起可能聽到前面同事講起吃糭...令我想起往事了.....不算什麼特別事,但很奇怪地就覺得心緒不寧.....

其他節日的病徵試過...很容易受環境氣氛影響,容易想起往事,為安排節目而煩惱,想在公司工作但個個都一早離開了,只得自己一個而感到寂寞......

可能我過往的節日都不是過得很開心吧,所以患了這個症!

我覺得我在節日來臨附近特別敏感,或者可能很多女孩都像我這樣,希望另一半做這做那,即使口裡沒說,心裡也很自然有這種盼望....結果往往感到失望......又或者因為其他事情影響,總之總會想得比較多,想得太過遠。所以男孩子應該要諒解...很快便過去...一切又回復正常....直至下一個節日....

P.S 我想其實我以前患的應該是節日麻木症! 想不想知道病徵是什麼?

An unexpected interview

I have started my busy life. My job required me to work overtime. Of course no one want to work until so late. I accept this life anyway. I also do not know why all my colleagues are so committed to their job. Although official leave time is 5:30pm, it still looks like a office at 3pm.

And today around that time, I received a secret call who asked me for interview. It was a job without details on the advertisement and I applied before I accepted the offer. I asked the man whether I could have interview after office hour and he said sure and asked me to have interview today. I said i have no preparation and he said it might be better and would be more casual. It was not easy to leave office so early but I chose to tell my manager that I had to leave earlier today because of personal affairs. At last, I was late for a half an hour. I think it was a funny experience because he is really nice and let me know about what kind of company that was, although I thought he would not give me the offer.

Now I understand job hunting is really a tough process. But I really got experience now. You are lucky if you have found a satisfied job and no need to hunt for a job. So work hard!

考完試啦!

今日很早便起身去考CFA。
很久未試過考公開試了,不過因為突然要上班緣故,所以變得沒有時間準備。總共有六本書,我想我連一半也沒看完。當然有一半原因是我沒有動力去讀,可能這個試也不是一定要考到。可否告訴我,為什麼我的朋友可以那麼有毅力,我真的見到你們很努力地完成Master課程呢!
雖然未讀完,因為全是選擇題,我還是睡醒便去了試場.....
去試場途中,見到很多人,也不明白為什麼那麼貴也這麼多人考(我就是其中一個大白痴吧!)。有的拖住手去試場,有的連群結隊,有的拿著書埋頭苦幹.......我當然不屬於其中一類...我想大概沒有人會覺得我去考試,大概他們只見到一個Zombie。
從未試過抱住這心態去考試........
不過總叫考完了,我可以做多點自己想做的事,可以去玩了。因為工作太忙碌了,返工放工......人生很苦悶呢! 我認為人要找一樣自己好想做的事,在忙碌中,即使犠牲睡覺時間也值得.......

My long vacation finished

I found a job finally and I will start my work on Tuesday. Although it is not an idea job to me, it's still a "job". Therefore, my long vacation is going to be finished. I have rest for four months. It's time to have a review of my vacation....what have I done and what have I got during my vacation?

1. Traveled to New Zealand alone for relaxation and English study. I met nice guys and made new friends there. I enjoyed sunshine and met many sheeps. I got an unforgettable memory. 2.Traveled to Sabah in Malayzia with friends from 'Woryin'. I tried excited rafting...played water motorcycle and swam a lot. It's really happy to go with them.
3.Passed my driving test and practised now....thanks Martin for catching me to practise.
4.Finished reading comic, "Initial D". Thanks Neville for lending VCD to me btw.
5.Built up my blog and wrote diary. It's good to have a place and share everything. Thanks for my friends who appreciate and keep watching.
6.Improved my oral English by watching "Friends" series and Pearl. Thanks Kelvin for lending me those DVDs.
7.Got interview experience and enhanced my confidence.
8.Recall my Finance knowledge by revising books for Chartered Financial Analyst exam.
9.Played a lot...e.g. hiking, watching movie, playing bowling, drinking, ...haha..
10.Passed my down time, stood up, down again, up again....

Maybe I can't list out all...anyway, I really want to say thanks to all my friends for accompany with me. I especially want to thank Christy, John, Kelvin and Teddy who give a lot of support to me!!!!

Raining heavily (27 May 05)

It was raining heavily in the evening....rains...thunderstorm...Amber rainstorm signal was on. Rain was falling heavily in all directions...and just the same as I feel of myself tonight... It seemed that I do not have direction in all aspects....I want to know what I want to get, what I want to achieve...especially for long term. But..no..it seemed that I can never get the answer. If I can't get the answer, can I don't think too much...just follow what my heart feel right now? But I am sorry, I am so uncertain about my heart feel like now. Where should I go? I wish someone can tell me...so I can go straightly to that road....but I know...the only one can help me is myself...I have to make my own decision...and I will!!!!

尋人啟事

姓:Kiyo san
相貌：不詳
衣著：西裝
最近出現地方：於４月１８日　旺角街市附近

那一天我在旺角街市附近見到一個好像你的人,直覺告訴我那人是你。我好想知道那個人是不是你，可是我那是正在講電話，未能追上前看看．．．我好想有機會再見一見你，不為什麼目的，我只想知道你現在樣子變成怎樣，你有沒有長高，我甚至未必需要知道你現在做什麼．．．記得上一次偶遇你已是四年多前的時候，但見到你那一刹的震撼真的令我很意外，或者我對你有深刻的印象，或者因為我從未遇到過一個曾經如此欣賞我的人。
希望有一天再遇到你。

Danny the dog

Today I went to see a movie called "Danny the dog" 不死狗 unexpectedly. I expected it is a movie involved many violent scenes. But in fact, most of the time it talks about how Danny changed from the dog life to a normal man. It involves family and love. In Danny's dog life, he has no feelings towards everything. After he met a blind man and his daughter, he learned what love is. Danny has tried very hard to start a new life.

We should learn from Danny. I also want to be a 不死狗. I don't want to turn back to my dog life. I want to start my new life. Even I have to face many challenges to get my new life, I should not give up. I hope everyone could have such spirit like Danny.

P.S. I am also happy to see movie with Teddy. It is the first time I saw movie with him. I hope he can also get some messages from the movie. Let's add oil!!!!

睇拍戲

大家姐終於好d出咗院lu! 好彩好彩!

今日返咗科大讀書...可以專心d..有d讀U時的感覺......不過由於我太懶惰的緣故....我諗我今次考試都係有d放棄咗....唔緊要啦......除咗錢...都冇咩損失呢!

夜晚放棄咗睇曼聯對阿仙奴足總杯. 去同朋友飲嘢....喺尖沙咀行行下,見到吳彥祖同楊千嬅拍緊爾冬昇喺婚紗舖門口拍戲.....吳彥祖真係好靚仔呀!不過因為成日都有人叫"唔好開閃光燈"、"行快d啦"。

我覺得我都應該可以去做下臨記! 我d戲都唔錯呀! 所謂人生如戲...我諗我都做咗咁多年戲....
尤其是以前看過村上春樹一本書裡面寫:
"Pretend you are happy when you are blue. It isn't very hard to do."
以前我都覺得幾啱.....起碼喺人面前我都好似成日好開心咁....
不過我都冇做戲好耐....因為好假....而且我真係開心咗....都唔使扮..

如果俾我選, 我下一部戲想做....做返一個女仔....想有多d女人味...想扮靚....想識煮飯...
因為以前太男仔啦!

大家姐快好番!

今日去完見工,本來好似都見得幾好,點知突然有個Written Test,考d嘢完全好technical, 又唔係我做開嗰飯...今次都係凍個水...

之後同舊同事去了食tea,估唔到一傾就傾咗兩個鐘...佢一d都冇變...依然係拿住一堆coupon去食tea...我真係好掛住佢!!!

到旁晚,我去咗醫院探我大家姐,估唔到佢隻眼會咁嚴重,佢隻眼細菌入眼,本來睇私家醫生,但係越睇越痛,跟住索性入醫院睇。有矓係眼球裡面,真係聽到未聽過。醫生話要再觀察,睇下用類固純有冇好轉.... 如果唔得就要用好勁的抗生素....阻止佢擴散。有時醫生診証真係要好果斷,好似分分鐘會醫錯人,希望佢真係揾到個好醫生,可以快d好番。

今晚我姨生仔放咗學都有去醫院探佢媽媽,佢只係得四歲,但好似好叻咁,又叫佢媽媽快d好番,又錫媽咪,我見到佢地母子情深,尤其是大家姐見到個仔時個樣真係流露出好開心的表情,真係令我好感動!一向好怕生仔的我,突然好想生番個仔呢!

曼聯被人收購了!

美國大亨完成了收購曼聯的逾75%股份。
"我恐怕球會將完全變得金錢掛帥，創立逾一個世紀的曼聯一直堅持自己的一套哲學、身份與青訓制度。"
我好傷心......看到這樣的報導,我完全同意,球會已變成了商家的棋子,很令人失望,尤其是由一個不認識足球的人成為大股東。而最近當我看曼聯對車路士之一役,已教人失望。
回想起開始喜歡曼聯的時候, 並不是因為碧咸,而是喜歡他們那種不屈不撓的精神,最震撼的應該是99年那年,歐冠盃對拜仁慕尼黑那一役,拜仁慕尼黑已冠軍在望,不過於補時階段,曼聯製造了最震撼的反勝奇蹟,由後備入替的舒靈咸及亦是後備入替的蘇斯克查射入成二比一。可能你會說是"符碌",但那刻我真的覺得那種"未到最後一刻也不判自己死刑"的精神很厲害。
現在的曼聯,沒錯有朗尼和C.朗拿度,但好似一點團結精神都沒有....變了....一切都變了....
幸好,傑斯剛續約了兩年,雖然年紀已不少,但始終是我喜愛的傑斯!

Dream

Do you believe in dream? Some people think it can tell what you would happen in your real life. Recently I made the same dream....of course not exactly the same. Does it mean some signals or not? This morning I even did not want to wake up and hope I could go back to that dream....because it was a nice dream anyway! Don't ask me what it is about except you are a 'dream' teller.

I remembered I heard a story about dreaming in the past. There is a kind of pill. If you take it, you would have a dream. In the dream, you can have everything you want and you will be happy there. But after 5 days, you will die. Would you take it or not? In the past, I chose I take it! I thought it is worth because I did not mind how short my life is...if it is meaningful. If I can get what I want, even in my dream, it's worth!

Now, if you ask me, I will not take. Maybe I have passed the stupid age. I still not care too much about the length of my life....if it is meaningful. However, it is just a dream and it is short. It is not real...and not meaningful. You can never stay in a dream...and the consideration is your life!
No idea about this topic? Then you should watch a movie called "Vanilla Sky". Tell me if you were Tom Cruise, what you would choose.

Everything has a time

Everything has a time.....
A time for laughing...a time for crying...
A time for dancing....a time for sorrow...

~ From ER ~

24

Have you seen the TV series "24" shown on Peral before? This thriller is a roller-coaster ride that unfolds in real time. From midnight to midnight -- covering a 24-hour day over the course of a season -- each episode will have its own resolution, but the clock will never stop ticking. I remember last time it showed on Pearl and I watched for several hours. It is an exciting TV series and tonight, Seasons 4 was shown on Pearl! It did not make me feel disappointed. I highly recommend you watching this if you have time!

Official website: http://www.fox.com/24/

Life is full of challenge and anythings can be happened within 24 hours! Time is important... even every minute or every second!

香水

我看了一套話劇,劇名叫<香水>。
看之前我對故事並沒有任何概念,只知由何超儀演,但劇名還蠻吸引,不知為何,我突然想起中學時代一位同學寫的短篇小説<殺人香水>,但內容已經很模糊,總之...香水可以用來殺人....

說回這套劇...我都幾欣賞,而結果也有點攪笑....
故事大概是這樣的....

伊雯與安豪(又叫Paul)是一對同居男女,但感情變淡。一天,伊雯在法國遇到一位香水師,買下了唯一的香水,這支香水名稱叫「唯一」,是男性香水,由香水師親自調製,是世上唯一一支。香水師更說,如果這唯一的香水灑在她的男人身上, 她便會是他唯一的女人。伊雯信以為真........

可是一天,她碰到了陳希,一個身上帶著與安豪味道一模一樣的女人。陳希告訴伊雯,灑了香水的男人, 跟他最愛的女人親熱後, 女人身上也會有這種味道, 但如果男人不愛這女人, 她一生也不會沾上他的氣味..,但陳希跟她的情人不能在一起了。伊雯最後忍不住問陳希她的情人是誰,她說阿Paul。
伊雯無名火起,她恨自己身上嗅不到那種香水的味道...與安豪吵了一場......安豪執拾行李離開。
後來伊雯終於知道陳希的故事......陳希愛的阿Paul就是那香水師,她曾在法國遇上他,有過一段情,阿Paul很愛陳希,可惜原來陳希在之前已經結婚了。

伊雯知道怪錯了安豪,可是一直也找不到安豪。

於是伊雯要求陳希與她一起去法國,很奇柽,她們找不著那間香水店。但最後伊雯在一個Party上見到香水師,她問香水師為什麼唯一會在另一女人身上找到,為什麼她沒有成為他的唯一......
香水師告訴她,安豪曾經找過他,問了同樣的問題......
是記憶....因為憑著記憶的味道而造出了唯一,希望陳希終有一天會回來找他.....
因為那年下了幾個月雨,令這支唯一加上了一份憂傷。
香水師說今年天氣好,他做了今年的「唯一」香水,伊雯覺得味道很特別....

陳希最後與香水師再見,歡喜約狂......但五天後.....陳希說要回香港.....五天沖走了五年的回憶。

安豪原來來法國讀書,認識了香水師,並找到了伊雯,他們冰釋前嫌.......但伊雯駭然發現......為什麼安豪身上會留有今年「唯一」香水的味道?

香水....真的有魔法嗎?...香味可敎人回憶.....可使人沉醉.....但香味始終會消失吧......隨著記憶.......

愛一個人

愛一個人,不應渴求回報,也不一定要擁有他。
愛一個人,是希望他永遠開心、快樂,希望他的日子會過得好。為什麼想能夠與他一起?因為你想給他幸福快樂的人是你,因為你見到他快樂,你都會快樂。
可是往往事與願違.......
因為某些原因,你不能與他一起了。沒錯,是很傷心吧!
但.....試想想.....如果沒有和你一起,他依然開心;沒有和你一起,有另一個人更可帶給他幸福快樂,哪不是更好嗎? 無論與誰一起,你都是希望他活得好吧...
這是愛的昇華!
不一定要擁有,在遠處默默地祝福他吧!
我知道,只要你知道他有困難,你一定會盡全力去幫他!
哪不是很傻瓜、很痛苦嗎?
不.....因為日子會慢慢、慢慢過去,你的守護神角色終有一天會完結,就是當你遇到另一個'他'時。
而這是你們倆或許可以成為真正的好朋友了。


<此文特別送給我的好朋友>

Sick today

I got fever today. Sometimes I felt hot and sometimes I felt cold for the whole night. Also I woke up many times and fell asleep again! I remember I made a lot of dreams.....dreams that never come true......terrible night! But the feeling of getting fever always recall a memory when I got fever in University.....feel so bad of getting hot and cold but feel so good of being taken care of.

Today, I knew I could not get up so I decided to give up my interview! Sometimes I also wonder whether I am escaping from somthings?! Why do I feel sick today, not other days?

I hope I can recover tomorrow.

Drink at WoodStone

今晚吃完飯,打完保齡球,去了銅鑼灣間WoodStone飲酒。$118任飲,我叫陳經理買定副啤牌上去,可以玩Showhand,結果我們叫了很多很多很多杯Shooters,玩了層層疊(由WoodStone供應),又玩了Showhand, 有一鋪糯米君更同陳經理"曬冷",幾刺激呀。還有cum棉胎, 潛烏龜,最好玩的是非洲話事啤,因為磨轆奇要倒樹沖,陳經理要打翻斗,真的好過癮,最後大家都飲到wing wing 地。我回家時睡著了,還差點錯過了個站落車呢!

Happy K Dinner

今晚承蒙各位"和弦"成員賞面出席,因為係小妹負責約人。我哋去咗唱K,慶祝Eugenie生日,而且歡迎和弦小may從印度回來。我哋更一齊睇番去Macau嘅Movie,每次睇都覺得好好笑。希望每年我地都可以攪到旅行啦!而睇和弦小may嘅同學嘅相,個個都黑mum mum,根本就分唔到邊個打邊個,真係好好笑。最後我地都唱到11點幾先走。Feel Good...!

不過,我要向和弦福將講聲唔好意思,我唔記得俾份小禮物你,我有帶gar....今次又再blow water tim....下次一定記住 ... :P

買衫隨想

今天約了朋友吃飯,因為未到約定時間,於是去了逛街。行行下,發現Kitterick Removal Sales,所有貨品只售三折,結果我就忍不住手了。

我發覺當我很想買一樣東西時,例如袋...有時我逛了很久,心大心細,見到個幾好,但又總覺得不時最好,再向上逛可能會見到更好的呢! 但當我再逛,又發覺好像也沒什麼特別,可能之前見到的是比較好吧! 但那時,行到累了,我已懶得再走回剛才的舖頭買那個都幾Okay的袋..可能還是覺得未致於必買不可和未有迫切性吧......結果空手而回。但偏偏當我沒刻意去找尋時,我卻買了我覺得挺不錯的袋。

事情就是這樣吧! 當你越渴求一樣事物,就越難得到它。反而,你沒刻意去期待的話,可能它最終會屬於你。

這是從Michelle的icq info 找到的.....
"if you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you, it will always be yours. If it doesn't come back, it was never yours to begin with."

緣份未到吧! 希望你會明白.......

Avril's effect

Songs have chemical effects!!!!! Listening to sad songs you may wanna cry.... Listening to cheerful songs you may feel encourage...Listening to Suede you may feel very lost....
Do you have such experience before?

I like listening to songs.....Recently I especially like Avril Lavigne's songs. I can listen to them again and again...when I was happy when I was sad...

Avril is from Canada and she is only 20...Her song is a bit 'rock' or 'teenage' but the melody and lyrics are really good....

Here are some lyrics extracted from the songs I liked:

Album name: Let Go
Song name: Complicated
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?

Song name: I'm with you
Isn't anyone trying to find me
Won't somebody come take me home
it's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I ..I'm with you....I'm with you

Song name: Tomorrow
I don't know how I'll feel,Tomorrow
I don't know what to say,Tomorrow Is a different day.Tomorrow.
Hey yeah yeah Hey yeah yea hAnd I know I'm not ready.
Hey yeah yeahHey yeah yeahMaybe tomorrow.

Album name: Under My Skin
Song name: My happy ending
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending So much for my happy ending

Song name: How does it feel
I am small And the world is big But I'm not afraid of anything

Song name: Freak out
I'm gonna live my life I can't ever run and hide
I won't compromise'cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes I can't watch the time go by
I won't keep it inside Freak out let it go Just freak out let it go

Song name: Don't tell me
Don't try to tell me what to do Don't try to tell me what to say

Thanks Kelvin for introducing her songs and Peggie for lending me her first album.

I really appreciate if you can introduce your great songs to me!!!!

At 27

Life at 27.....growing up...is really challenging...
Ageing was something we wanted so much to avoid....
somethings you want to do, but cannot do....
somethings you have to control, but you cannot....
working pressure, family problems, money, career problem, love affairs.......
we are often in a dilemma....
all we want to escape from.....
release pressure.....
find happiness....
forget everythings....
enjoy the moment......
sing...dance...smoke....
drink...drunk.....hug....
people go crazy in the mid-night easily.....
but next day....everythings go back to normal....
wow.....that's the life of 27.....
cause go back to the world that we have to face the fact at last.....
But.....life at 27 will pass......after you step to 30...

我考到車牌了!

很開心,我考到車牌了!沒有大志的我當然是考私家車自動波啦! 本來考完我以為自己一定fail.因為考完拉手制、入P波,但白痴的我竟然忘記了熄匙,考官提我"考完了",我都未記得,他再提我,我還在心想...那你還不下車?到他再講時,我先記得。他真的超好人呢!!!!所以我真的很幸運,又可能是女仔關係,連白痴的我都可以Pass到。:）很開心不用再花錢學車了．．．

考完了．．．
不用再學車了．．．
我終於可以自己坐駕駛座，掌握方向盤了．．
但突然有種強烈的感覺．．我的助手席已沒有人了．．．沒有人會告訴我該走哪條路．．沒有人會在我錯時踩我Brake..．今後我真的要靠自己雙手，尋找自己想去的地方．．．尋找通往那裡的方向．．．
是有點害怕．．但我必需要這樣做．．亦相信我可以做到．．我的悠長假期也該是時候完結了吧?!

朋友們！希望有朝一日，我可以練好駕駛技術．．．還可以載大家去想去的地方啦!(發下夢先!)

I love Frank Lampard

繼傑斯後,我愛上了另一個英格蘭球星---林伯特(Frank Lampard)。我喜歡他能在球場上的表現,積極勤力、才智果斷、好像永遠都不會累的。雖然是中場球員,但仍能夠在聯賽中取得多個入球。即使昨晚車路士對阿仙奴一戰,雖然沒有入球,但仍見到他回防救球。他真係我的新偶像!!!

以下是他的小Profile:
位置 ：中場
國籍 ：英格蘭
出生日期 ：20/06/1978
出生地點 ：羅姆福德 (Romford)
曾效力球隊：West Ham United
現效力球隊：車路士(Cherlsea)

I got a Cheese Cake!

Today I received a cheese cake from a special man which was bought from Italian Tomato. I was so touching and my tear wanna run off....because I was so surprised of what he did for me. I remember he told me last time when I saw him he would buy a cheese cake for me. I was surprised because he was serious and kept his promise. Even I may not be able to keep promise all the time. This family is really kind and although I do not know what happen in the future, I really hope I can keep relationship with them. By the way, the cake is delicious!!!!

So what I have learnt today is .... don't always 'blow water'....take action for what you said!!!!

You never know what will happen next minute

Today I planned to do some job research. However, after going out for lunch and back home, I found that I forgot to bring out my key. So I had to go to Mongkok and find my mum....haha.. At last, my plan for today was changed.

This is our life. You would never know what will happen tomorrow. Sometimes you think you will get that job, but no hope finally. Sometimes you think you can lose but you win finally...
Therefore, no need to think too much! Just let it go naturally.

Enjoy every moments! Just like I am enjoying my comics now. Again I found a touching sentence in no. 17 and I could not stop myself from writing it down.

夏樹與拓海畢業了....要各自踏上征途...這是分別後夏樹的心聲....

夏樹: 再見了,拓海....
與拓海留下的回憶是我一生的瑰寶....若果沒有結識過拓海的話.........我的高校生活肯定只有不愉快的回憶,以後也不想再記起來........對於我來說,拓海就是.......一個燦爛奪目的太陽...因為跟拓海結識了.......才能留下....一大堆愉快的回憶......你努力去實現理想吧...我一直都會在心底聲援着你.....我真是.....配不上拓海呀......但我是永遠也不會忘記的.....跟拓海在一起的日子曾是我的瑰寶....再見了...拓海...祝你健康快樂!!!!!

Initial D 頭文字D

終於我建立了我的日記，希望將來我忙的時候，也會繼續寫。

為了將要上映的頭文字D，我開始了看頭文字D的漫畫。其實我對車真的沒多大認識，所以漫畫中很多專用名詞我都不太明白。但．．．不重要．．我還是被那比賽的緊張和主角的傻氣而吸引住。今日我還在#13發現了一句精彩亦令我感動的句子．．．．

和美：不敢面對事實，逃避自己的任性．．．會使人變軟弱的．．．
所以，這次要好好加油．．．來羣馬一趟，讓我增加了不少自信．．．
應該是阿樹你的關係．．．
阿樹：．．．
和美：所以．．．我也決定去駕訓班學開車．．．這是我的．．．小目標．．．
坐助手席畢業了．．．該換自己坐駕駛座，掌握方向盤．．．依自己的意志行動，要去那 裡就去那裡.....

Great, right? 你又是否已經坐在你的駕駛座?

Back to UST

Today I went to my university for a MBA Information Session. In fact I am not intended to take the course right now because it is too expensive. But it became an excuse for me to go back my university. It has been about three years I have not been there after graduation. The feeling was so special. Everywhere is so familiar but I also found new item in the school. I recall the good memories in my university life.....e.g. posted the 'Woryin' posters around school during mid-night.....ate 'car noodles' as 'siu yeah'....had birthday party in the atrium during mid-night...
Suddenly I find that it is not bad to revise book in UST's library for my CFA exam.