天意安排

有些事情真的有點巧合….
應該是由一盒月餅開始….

將近中秋, 公司就收到很多vendor 送來的月餅, 公司會以抽獎形式將月餅送給員工, 總算是一些員工福利吧!
而我有幸成為「幸運兒」。
但不只為何…是鴻x酒家的月餅….都不知可以在那兒拿。
結果今晚特地提早一點收工, 最順路應算去荔枝角取。但其實得到一盒月餅, 家裡已很多月餅了, 所以我都不知要來做什麼, 結果都是想拿給姑姐。但又有點猶豫, 拿給舊男友的親人, 是否已不應該再拿給她? 但我不想做事再那麼猶豫了, 想做便去做…結果都是拿給她吧!

她約我去了朗豪坊某地點等…..
在等她之際, 在那位置, 我遇見了一個同事, 與他的女朋友經過。

突然覺得一切疑團解開了, 原來他真的開始拍拖了。我也不用再估他想什麼…

我覺得好像天意安排, 非常巧合…..為什麼姑姐會約我在那地點?
Haha….多謝姑姐, 多謝上天的安排。

Everything has a cycle

今日星期六, 照舊要返工。
對於日日都有 ‘Dead’line嘅我, 係咪應該要繼續做到下週?
但我選擇咗離開, 因為聽日都要開工…….聽日開工有補假…同事教嘅。
如果係以前嘅我, 一定會繼續做……
結果我都係逃走咗…

突然覺得逃走呢個動作好熟….記得喺EY做到第三年開始逃走避阿Wing, 又記得中銀時亦試過……當我有呢個諗法, 離我離開呢間公司不遠矣….

突然諗起一位同事同我講…..everything has a cycle, 無論樓市、股市、愛情、工作、阿姐的心情…..你估到呢個cycle, 趁機入市…咁就冇死….

冇錯…..everything has a cycle…..而我…工作如是、愛情如是….只係不停地重覆住呢個cycle..

工作:
一開始好有幹勁, 取得上司信任….workload加重,….辛苦得滯….對公司不滿, 最後突然離開。
愛情：
開始唔肯定到接受，投入….甜蜜….穩定…誤會….不滿….猜疑….最後寂寞的感覺湧現…分開

但點解個Cycle 越來越短…?
第一份工做咗三年…第二份工一年…依家….做咗三個月就去到逃走嘅感覺。

“make a wish, take a chance, make a change and breakaway”
“find a way, breakaway”
“take a risk, take a chance, make a change and breakaway”
lyrics from Breakaway~Kelly Clarkson

Mr. Right

Today I read a journal from a friend....and got the following extracts.

>>
范曉萱談及有關她的感情事時她說:

"現在覺得愛情可有可無. 找個男朋友, 無非想他跟你做很多事情,
可是有很多事情, 我寧願跟我的姊妹去做, 也不想跟男朋友去做."
>>

Sometimes I may agree the first sentence. But I doesn't agree the second part. It is not my purpose to find a boyfriend.

"可是有很多事情, 我寧願跟我的姊妹去做, 也不想跟男朋友去做."
It made me recall what a friend told me.....

People always complain about their existing boyfriend or girlfriend because they are not their "Mr. Right". We believe we can find our 'Mr. Right' in the future.

However, after some days I gave up and I think I will never meet my 'Mr. Right' in the future.

And now I would think why we must find a 'Mr. Right' as life partner? There can be many different "Mr. Right" in your life. We can find different 'Mr. Right(s)' in different aspects...even boys or girls..... a singing Mr. Right....a shopping Mr. Right....a talking Mr. Right......a drinking Mr. Right......a computering Mr. Right...... a swimming Mr. Right....a clubbing Mr. Right......a comics Mr. Right.....a bowling Mr. Right.....a dining Mr. Right......a icq Mr. Right.....a cooking Mr. Right....a hiking Mr. Right......a fishing Mr. Right......a movie Mr. Right.....a photographing Mr. Right....a travelling Mr. Right.......a dancing Mr. Right.....a TV game playing Mr. Right.....

It is not easy to find a perfect match......so please don't complain too much about your lover but just treasure.

Re: 我在雲上愛你

那天我與妳同飛在天空下的彩虹
漫遊在藍天白雲浪漫色彩中
同享晨曦光輝樂無窮
我要如流星劃破妳漆黑的長空
驚喜每天往妳內心送

即使分手時波濤洶湧
過往喜樂日子定會蓋過疼痛
縱使路途確有不同
總勝過困在孤單的寒冬
我會在遙遠的星空
祝福一點點地贈送

~Written by someone ... Thanks very much!

世界上另一個我

你相信世界上存在著另一個你嗎?

世界上的另一個我, 樣貌與我不一樣, 生活背景亦不同, 遭遇當然與我不一樣, 但…..大家的思想非常接近, 思路經歷亦相似, 領會的道理, 體驗的事物, 也可能只是一個先, 一個後。大家根本不用多說, 也會明白對方的想法。

我曾經認為即使這個世界沒有人明白我, 只有一個人明白我就夠了…..而那人一定是另一個我。
原來這個我是一直存在, 即是我曾經憎恨過, 疏遠過, 這個我原來一直存在。

當我失去了自己的影子時, 我會記得世界上仍然有另一個我......

對不起，影印機．．．

今日在公司感到很大壓力, 因為有堆積如山的工作, 又覺得上司沒考慮我的工作量, 十分不快。剛巧走廊見到同事甲, 她問我怎樣。於是我拉她埋一邊竊竊私語, 剛巧一部壞了的影印機在旁, 它真的”好彩”了。我便扮修理影印機, 一邊對同事訴苦。我打開影印機的蓋, 抽出那大舊的component, 發現沒有紙’zip’ 在裡面, 又再將它大力推番入去。如是者做了幾次這個動作。最後我同事忍不住說:「夠了，不要拿它來發洩吧！」

我停了手，回到坐位，感覺舒暢了不少。想不到我影印機可以幫我減壓。
我真的傻傻地。

大富翁

今晚與和弦一班人食飯，都幾齊人．．．．慶祝Ada及Christy生日，之後去了Christy家玩大富翁。未試過成10個人一齊玩。曾有人提議用真錢玩，行過一圈可以拿20蚊．．．抽到機會咭如果是選美就要真的比人選才可拿奬金．．哈哈．．可以借貸，還可以計息．．一定很刺激。

最後我們當然沒有用錢，但都很好玩，因為我們定了一個Rule，如果踏進那地罰款，而地主沒立即出聲收錢，過了兩個人擲骰子，就沒有追討權。所以我們千方百計地令某些人不為以，過了追索時間。又有人不知為何明明擲到去九龍塘，‘借ｄ以”督咗去前一格罰少ｄ錢。又有人成日都坐監，一出監又立即抽到機會咭“立即入獄。總之好攪笑。

希望下次可以玩番一些兒時玩意，又可以加點創意就好了。你們有沒有好提議??

千奈美（續）

仍然是有關千奈美的故事．．．．
我曾經覺得越來越像千奈美，但今日我突然發覺，有一點我不像她，至少現在的我還未。
我並不會像她，為了不過糜爛的生活，為了開始新生活，而去接受飛鳥先生，雖然是一個好好或可以帶給自己“幸福”的人．．．我還是未能做到。

Woodstone

記得之前提過曾經去過呢個地方, 今晚又再去…..可是….非常之差…
唔之點解non-alcohol 飲品會咁點….連有alcohol嘅酒都咁甜….自己溝仲好…
最後我都係飲翻最穏陣嘅whisky 加 green tea ……

記得第一次去…覺得呢個係好地方, 有層層疊, 又可以任飲….

第二次去….都覺得好開心, 玩到癲咗…..倒樹沖….打翻斗……

之後再去, 已經再沒以前那種咁開心…

今次…….我地話以後都唔去lu…

點解? 係咪去多咗….做多咗…..就冇新鮮感???
定係真係唔可以時常保持質素????

拍拖係咁…讀書係咁……做嘢係咁…..
點解樣樣都係咁? 人人都係咁???
究竟要轉幾多次先滿意???

Farewell party

A ex-colleague, Meisze, from EY told me she would seconded to EY London for one and a half year later. I envy her so much! At that time I thought I should not leave EY.....because I really wanted to leave Hong Kong and work overseas.

Tonight they held a farewell party for Meisze and we had dinner in an Italian restaurant in SOHO area.

In fact I have not contacted my ex-colleagues for long...some of them haven't seen for at least half year. When I got there, I found many strangers there....because I was old enough and I could not recognise those new comers.

I was shocked when I saw James's baby and I also found that my manager, Dennis got his baby as well. It seemed that I have already disappeared for a long time because I really don't know they have already had their baby. Time passed so quickly.

Yes....I really do not belong to EY anymore.

By the way, the food of that restaurant is not good and I would not recommend you to go.

千奈美

我越來越覺得自己很像千奈美……….
因為曾有著與她相似的感覺….曾有著與她相似的經歷…

你有沒有看過一部柴門文的作文，叫「同班同學」?
柴門文就是畫「東京愛的故事」和「愛情白皮書」的人。許多年前無線播過「同班同學的日劇。後來我再買漫畫看。

千奈美……對愛情的感覺…那種患得患失…莫名其妙地與男朋友分手….卻又對他不能忘懷，很想獨立會內心其實很需要依靠…表面逞強的女孩子….
曾嘗試與鴨居透復合，卻又知道無法在一起。最後，決定將對阿透的感情變成回憶，與相睇而結識的男人一起生活。

即使我許多年再看這本漫畫，我也會有想哭的感覺……

其實我不想似她….因為我不想去相睇…….
但我感到終有一天，我可能會這樣做…….
我應該去嗎?

Coffee Shop

是這樣的一個故事…..
一天, 阿John 告訴我他去了旺角的一個地方, 哪裡有薰衣草茶, 但很難喝…..
後來他帶了我去這個地方, 我並有選薰衣草, 我依稀記得我應該是喝咖啡。我開始愛上這地方。門口其實賣飽, 入面才有幾張檯……我喜歡這裡是因為我欣賞那隻咖啡杯, 是很classic 的那種, 坐在那裡喝咖啡令我有置身英國coffee shop 的感覺, 而更好的是那裡永遠不會滿坐, 很難可以在旺角區找到這樣的地方。

所以有時候我會自己去吃點東西, 感受一下寧靜的氣氛, 因為一踏出去, 又是熱鬧的旺角。

後來有一段時間沒有去, 發現那裡轉了用另一種咖啡杯, Standard白色的那一種,我是有點失望的。

後來又有一次去, 又是另一種咖啡杯, 今次更特別, 有自己logo, 個杯型是斜的。我忍不住問waitress: 「你們時時轉杯呢!」她說:「對呀, 因為常常打爛杯子, 所以要試試哪比較。」

那是我最後一次去那裡。

一個月後, 我放了工, 想起可以去那裡吃飯, 突然發現它不見了, 我很意外, 有點失落……我已想不到在旺角可以有另一個地方取代它。

我真希望有朝一天, 我可以自己開一間。

Cooking Night

今日本來諗住去看Hello Kitty Hide and Seek Exhibition, 其實我戒了Hello Kitty 好耐啦...不過咁啱有人話去...咁都想去睇下.....點知去度先知原來兩日前已經買晒飛, ....香港人...咩事呀...

之後去咗檀記食嘢....依然係要諗下一度去邊....哈哈...結果去咗陪Christy買煲煮飯。真係唔大雨嗰日都唔做d咁嘅嘢。我地跟住去埋惠康買餸, 又大雨, 一袋二袋, 好輪盡.....但真係估唔到.....gary會成為我地嘅大廚。一個咁artistic嘅人, 但又識煮飯。

我地又有湯、又有飯。雖然蕃茄煮蛋失敗咗, 但其他都好好。

真係唔知點解男仔仲識煮飯過女仔。真失敗, 不過煮飯真係好好玩, 我都要好好學習.....

Here Come The Tears

Tonight I went to see the concert performed by The Tears. I took a leave today to ensure I could arrive on time.

The members of the Tears came from the foreign band, Suede. I went with two secondary colleagues. I have not seen Andrew with several years, two or three. It is really hard to imagine 10 years ago that 'We' would meet in such an occassion - to see a foreign band's concert. It is quite interesting, isn't it?

The hall was not big. When we arrived, there were still empty seats. The atomosphere was quite different from last time I saw Avril's concert....no young girls, not so many foreigners. Before the show started, the security asked us not to stand in front of the stage. But we could do so after that. Therefore, we had to rush to the front of the stage when the show started. At last I could find a good position. I felt so close with the singers. Everyone was excited when The Tears came out. I could touch Brett Anderson's hands....so happy! But we were really tired after the concert!

Song Introduction: http://winonalam.multiply.com/music/item/9

New harddisk

I bought my new harddisk today.

Same memory size....but should be faster...

It is so 'clean' now and I have to build up everythings again!

Suddenly I feel so excited...installed the basic software and of course icq afterwards.

But I found that I could not install everythings in one night. It has been already late.

Jasper told me to install others when I used. Yes...he is right. I really don't have to rebuild everythings immediately.

So everythings go back to normal....I can online and play icq.....with one exception... it is empty.....

It may be good.... suddenly I remember one sentence from John's gift long time ago...

"No Brain, no pain"

主

我發覺我的同事很多都是基督徒。六個人去吃飯, 有四個是。
早兩天, 我問其中一個同事借了本有關基督句子的書, 後來個個都問我為什麼會有興趣看, 有什麼感覺。
我其實當是看工具書….因為喜歡它帶出的訊息。
我相信有神的存在, 我可能會禱告, 但我不信神績。
我害怕commitment, 我也不會返教會。
我相信有一個’神’去主宰人的大體的命運, 但細節可以由自己掌握……
我亦相信你所面對的路和遭遇, 有這樣的安排一定有原因。當我在苦難的時間, 我會這樣告訴自己, 一定有原因….也許是試練,也許是報應….
但苦難的日子不會是永遠, 總會過去….之後人便成長, 更懂珍惜快樂的時光。
而不親身經歷過, 你也不懂去幫助其他人。

千杯不醉

不是宣傳楊千嬅和吳彥祖的新片, 我真的害怕自己會練成這身絶技。
我越來越覺得自己不易醉了, 昨晚唱K唱通宵, 飲了也不少酒, 沒有預先吃解酒丸, 但我竟然沒有太大醉意。

記得小時候是媽媽教我飲少許酒, 她說識飲酒就不易被人灌醉。那是最喜歡去飲時, 叫七喜加兩滴白蘭地, 侍應常以為是忌廉。

但真正飲酒, 第一次飲醉, 應該大約中五六吧, 還記得是被帶到聯和墟的一間酒吧, 我飲了兩支啤酒, 飲時我並沒什麼反應, 怎料一起身我就頭暈, 站不穏了。
不過那時也挺開心。

之後, 不用多說, 應該大學時開始, 喜歡一大班朋友飲酒…...我不是很能飲, 但之後都避免不了, 一大班朋友開心時飲酒, 朋友失戀陪飲酒, 返大陸陪client飲酒, Annual Dinner勁飲, 兩個人摸酒杯底….一個人飲悶酒…, 由只識飲啤酒到飲紅酒, whisky, volka…..由去bar到去樓上pub, 由第五街到Woodstone。

見証了我們的成長。

由最初有少少wing的感覺,…到最後沒有感覺…….
很可怕呢!

對上一次我真的飲醉, 應該是與同一個人, 帶我第一次飲的人。隔了這麼多年了, 不過那時也挺開心

P.S. 其實真的想醉, 應該要溝酒飲, 即嘔。

Drama

It is hard to believe that I have seen a drama tonight, which was performed by my friend.
It is hard to believe that I seen a drama, not in City Hall or Culture Centre, but in an industrial building in Diamond Hill.

It is really a special experience. I am really glad to meet Gary, such a ‘cool’ and artistic man.

Although this is his first performance, I can feel his potential. At least he could avoid laughing when he saw us laughing at him when he just came out….haha..

It should be funny to stand on the stage, right?

I think everyone should have a chance, right? Maybe next time you can have chance on your wedding party.

My hard disk was dead

I was notified that my harddisk was certified to death.

As I told you before, I know he is dying. But at the moment of the reconfirmation, suddenly I feel so sad. Not just only I cannot use it again, but also I 'lost' it....all the memories saved in it, that cannot be retrieved anymore.

I feel like part of my life has passed away.

Those memories included many photos, the songs that was saved starting from my university life, emails, wallpapers and etc. .....

A friend comforted me that the songs can be downloaded again. Yes, he is right. However, how can I rebuild all the memories that supposed accumulated for few years in a short period? If I can rebuild my memories, should I rebuild a totally different memory of my past? Any suggestion?


I think I am good at memorising thing. However, when I recall my sad part of my memory, I really envy those who do not have a bad memory....... Maybe it is better if we can have a right to choose to forget those unhappy part.

But I think I am the type who can't live without memories....

I have tried my best to build wonderful memories for myself ...... let me review again and again..until the day I die.

Man should look forward and move on....but it is not so bad to look back in fact....I think just the way how to look back......

My recent life

I can't believe my life experencing this week. Two months passed so quickly. I have entered this company for two months. However, here I feel like passing double or triple hours........
I still have to stay late in office. Some people asked me to quit and sometimes I want. But sometimes I would think maybe it suits me.

Anyway, I can still enjoy my life...busy life after works. I nearly sleep very little at night..sometimes i can't fall asleep....sometimes I am chatting with friends. Although I am tired, I was happy to do that....give up my sleeping time.

Because the life with work only is very boring.

Some friends have good news...some friends have bad news. ... I like them to share with me and that's I can only do for them!

But not many friends can chat with me after 1200am ... you know.

And at the same time, my hard disk died......
I will choose a day to hold a funeral for it....my dear....I might lost all the data in it...!