Jesse: Life's hard. It's supposed to be. If we didn't suffer, we wouldn't learn a thing, you know?......
Celine: ......Sometimes I put things in drawers inside my head and forget about it. I guess it's less painful to put things away than live with it. I'm sorry.........
Celine: It made me realize I haven't changed much at all.
Jesse: Right, uh, as soon as people had gotten used to their new situation, uh, they were more or less the same.
Celine: The same?
Jesse: Well, yeah. Like, uh, if they were basically an optimistic, jovial person, they're now an optimistic, jovial person in a wheelchair. If they're a petty, miserable asshole, okay, they are a petty, miserable asshole with a new Cadillac, a house and a boat.Celine: Hmm. So you mean I'll be forever depressed no matter what great things happen in my life?
Jesse: Definitely..............
Celine: I'm happy you're saying that, because, I mean, I always feel like a freak because I'm never able to move on like (snap finger) this, you know? People just have an affair, or even entire relationships, they break up and they forget. They move on like the would have changed brand of cereals. I feel I was never able to forget anyone I've been with, because each person had their own specific qualities. You can never replace anyone. What is lost is lost. Each relationship, when it ends, really damages me. I never fully recover. That's why I'm very careful with getting involved because....it hurts to much. Even getting laid, I actually don't do that. I will miss of the person the most mundane things. Like I'm obsessed with little things. Maybe I'm crazy, but when I was a little girl, my mom told me that I was always late to school. One day, she followed me to see why. I was looking at chestnuts falling from the trees, rolling on the sidewalk, or, ants crossing the road, the way a leaf casts a shadow on a tree trunk. Little things....I think it's the same with people. I see in them little details, so specific to each of them that move me and that I miss and....will always miss. You can never replace anyone because everyone is made of such beautiful, specific details......
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Celine: Like, I, I'm, I'm a strong independent woman in my professional life. I don't need a man to feed me, but I still need a man to love me and that I could love, you know? ....
~ Scripts from the film"before sunset" ~
I don't know why this dialogue is still swinging in my head.
I was so shocked after hearing this conversation..... do I have the same feeling with Celine? I asked myself.....
~ to be continued ~
